Friday, November 03, 2006

False Alarm

[ evanescence ] all that i'm living for

I went to bed around midnight last night, and as I was tossing and turning trying to fall asleep... I started to feel a little uncomfortable yet I didn't know why... I started to explore why I felt that way, yet that feeling of something terrible might happen growing even stronger... I was shivering and sweating... Made a few calls/sms to ensure everybody I care about is okay...

Well, I have always trusted my instinct and it hardly failed me... On the other hand, I sometimes do wonder if it was my strong mind that made things happened and made things come true...

Anyway, it's never a good feeling knowing something was going to happen, yet I couldn't stop it... and this kinda feeling used to frustrate me a lot because I just couldn't do anything to change it nor to help anyone... and I used to question what is the purpose of given me such distinct instinct when I couldn't change anything? ...But I have grown to understand that maybe I wasn't supposed to change the course of what may happen in the future, and the purpose of it perhaps was to help me and help others to prepare and to handle what may have come? ...

Well, I thought the best I could do was to stop worrying because I still don't fully understand the power of my mind? ...and I read from somewhere about - sometimes mind power could contribute to what is going to happen... so in order not to let my mind release any negative vibes and maybe make things come true... I decided to meditate and calm myself down... Boxed away all the negative things away, and imagined white lights all around everybody and everything...

And the last time I checked the time, it was 3.15am...

I woke up at 6.30am feeling afresh and I'm a little surprised how much meditation helps... Usually if I went to bed such late and woke up such early, I would feel extremely tired and have puffy eyes... Anyway, I was feeling great in the morning... but all started to go down hill at 2pm at work, cos I couldn't stop yawning... TGIF!!! ... =)

Well, about the terrible feelings I had last night? ...Perhaps it was just a false alarm... Perhaps it's just a journey for me to learn slowly how to take a little control of my powerful mind (who knows? ...maybe i really do have special power that I know not of - just like the popular TV series in US (HEROES?)... haha... In all, meditate helps...
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2 comments:

Anonymous said...

you must be thinking too much!! like.. woo-si-luen-seong.. (did i get that right?!)
i had really bad dreams but can't really be bothered analysing them..like a car skidding fr opposite direction and having a head-on crash with me and my dad in it.. and meaningless dreams like me defrosting freezer to find i had fish and orange (why would i put orange in a freezer?!) btw, meditation helps.. yes.. tried yoga? know how to do the sun-salutation? (not expert, but can show u next mth.. **)

5:17 pm, November 04, 2006
OoKi said...

I didn't really think about anything until that unsettled feeling hit me... and THEN I started to think too much when I tried to find out where that feeling comes from...

Anyway, like you... I don't analyze dreams at all... I do believe there's some kinda relation between dreams and our subconscious, but I personally not that interested in exploring more about my dreams, cos I either don't dream, or I dream about nothing =) ... BUT I must admit when I'm stressed for solution or inspirations for something, I do dream about it and I'd get a really cool stuff from my dreams... I give all the credits to my very handsome guardian angel who protects me all the times... hehehe... =)

12:44 pm, November 11, 2006

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