Just being discharged from the white cell at 9East, Room8 since Sunday night... Right hand is full of needle holes yet there's no finding of origin of the my on-and-off fever... 4 nights of living in the room wasn't too easy, yet it wasn't too tough as well (as there's Pay TV to entertain me, as well as magazines which family brought for me)...
It wasn't fear of death that got to me... it was actually the torment of "not knowing why" that hit me hard... I couldn't understand why my temperature going up and down like a roller coaster (which prevent me from going home to sleep on my own bed and having real food - hospital food sucks!)...
Hospital nurses are very kinda and caring, and I felt terrible to always have to push the "call" button to ask them to serve me (bring me water, bring me towel/changing clothes for shower, and etc)... It's way out of my comfort zone to request HELP from others especially with things that I was able to do it myself if I wasn't in this state... I dislike being taken care of like a weak... But I greatly appreciate the patience and the kindness of all the nurses as they are like angels to me...
My health is deteriorated due to this fever... but I hope my body will recover soon as I still have a long battle to confront... I still have a few things that I need to do before I'm willing to leave... I'll list them out so that they are not being overlooked nor missed out....
Anyway, I'm glad that I'm out of the white cell...
Sorry to have made my family and a few friends and many colleagues of mine worried these few days... I'll take great care of myself... and thanks for all your concerned... I'm getting better each day now!!
It wasn't fear of death that got to me... it was actually the torment of "not knowing why" that hit me hard... I couldn't understand why my temperature going up and down like a roller coaster (which prevent me from going home to sleep on my own bed and having real food - hospital food sucks!)...
Hospital nurses are very kinda and caring, and I felt terrible to always have to push the "call" button to ask them to serve me (bring me water, bring me towel/changing clothes for shower, and etc)... It's way out of my comfort zone to request HELP from others especially with things that I was able to do it myself if I wasn't in this state... I dislike being taken care of like a weak... But I greatly appreciate the patience and the kindness of all the nurses as they are like angels to me...
My health is deteriorated due to this fever... but I hope my body will recover soon as I still have a long battle to confront... I still have a few things that I need to do before I'm willing to leave... I'll list them out so that they are not being overlooked nor missed out....
Anyway, I'm glad that I'm out of the white cell...
Sorry to have made my family and a few friends and many colleagues of mine worried these few days... I'll take great care of myself... and thanks for all your concerned... I'm getting better each day now!!
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