Shopping with Mum

[ 齊秦 ] 袖手旁觀

Initially I planned to shop for my dress for my bro's wedding... but I ended up shopping with mum at Malvern... Anyway, it was quite a driving distance from my place to Malvern, but having mum filling me in with all the news regarding my relatives in Msia, made the journey a little interesting...

Malvern has lotsa boutiques that's a little different... Mostly a bit mature for me, but mum was quite happy to find those shops which are different to the shops in Shopping Centres (High-Point or Chadstone).

Anyway, I bought a nice charcoal colour knee length pants which can be worn for office or leisure... I nearly bought the red bag too from the same shop, but I thought I shall look for my dress instead of buying more accessories... hehe...

Well, I think I spent quality time with mum today and found out lotsa details regarding my relatives in msia... Sometimes I would wonder why there's conflicts between the siblings when it comes to inherit the land/$$$... Well, I wouldn't mind if my parents give all their $$$ to my brother at all... I guess if you love your siblings enough, you wouldn't even be that calculative, yeah?? ...Hmm... but I'm sure every family has their own stories behind closed doors that I know not of...

Valentine's Day

[ verve ] drugs don't work

Did you have a great Valentine's Day? ...
I didn't even feel it at all... but I did have an unusual Valentine's Day...

Drugs don't work... as more lesions found...
They said I'm still young and they'll absolutely help me find a drugs that works... I was devastated by the news as I thought there'd be good news... But not...

Didn't get any Valentine's flowers this year... My dearest gay friend has gone back to Msia for holidays... Normally he would give me flowers which he arranged during Valentine's... He is such a talented person as he could transform anything into beautiful things (flowers, paintings, drawings, and food!)...

Anyway, I have cancelled my plans for May as I thought I would be able to have a short holidays in Msia and HK/China... Oh well, until I have found the suitable drugs... I don't think I'd go anywhere...

Suzuki Night Market @ Queen Victoria Market

[ misia ] any love

I didn't think my Wednesday would be any different to the other Wednesday, but today was a little unusual... as it was a last minute decision to visit Suzuki Night Market at Queen Victoria Market.

Every year, I would make an effort to visit this Wednesday night market because I just love it there. There's so many arty stuff and a lot of home made and unique designs available... There's also hawker food stalls around as well as live performances for free... I guess it is also quite special as it is the ONLY night market in Melbourne and they only have it during Summer...

Anyway, I bought an Relaxation Pillow for eyes (filled with Lavender, Chamomile, rose and Millet filling) as well as a Moon Bag for neck&shoulder (filled with Lavender, Ginger, Sandlewood and wheat filling) which can be heated up in the Microwave for 2 mins, and it's good for aches, pains and tense muscles... They cost me Aud$40... hmmm... A little expensive but I really like it...

Also, I bought a Neckerchief from a stall called "The Girl Can't Help It" for my colleague as it was her birthday... The neckerchief is soooooooooooooooo pretty I really wanted one for myself too... but they don't have the one which I wanted (cos they no longer has the antique fabric or buckle for that particular patterns)... What a pity!!! ...But I still think they are really really pretty.... Love it!

I guess I'm into scarf and all these sort nowadays cos not only I could use them as hair bands, they also looks pretty when wrapping around the neck... I guess I feel more comfy with them than wearing necklace, eventhough I do like necklace too (edgy and unique ones only!) but rarely had the chance to wear them...

Anyway, my next stop next time would be:-
(1) Lost and Found market
(2) Rose Street Market

Chinese New Year in Melb

[ 恭喜恭喜 ]

I remember last year I went to almost every Chinese New Year celebrations in Melb (ie. Box Hill, Springvale, Richmond, Crown, Chinatown, except Footscray). This year I only went to Chinatown and Crown just to feel the atmosphere...

Anyway, Chinatown (Little Burke Street) was soooooo crowded I felt as if I was still walking at the same spot... Thankfully the weather wasn't that hot at all... Anyway, there were one dragon waiting in the middle of the road for the right time to perform... and at least 5 lion dances along Swanston Walk and Little Burke Street...

We had to get out of Chinatown because it was too crowded and we went the long way to Russell Street just to check out the stalls to see what they were offering this year... As usual, all those hawker stalls and bright red decorations for Chinese New Year... We bought a slice of yummy 肉干 (sorry, I don't really know what's the English name for this!) and slowly walked to Crown Casino as there's more along Yarra River...

Personally I prefer the Chinese New Year Celebration at Crown along the riverside... probably because it's more spacious and it's a nicer view along the river? ...Bought so many food to eat (Curry Fish Balls, "Apong Balik"), 豆腐花, and Green Tea Drinks)... If I hadn't have lunch earlier, I think I would have bought more food (ie. 猪肠粉, Satay, and PoPiah) ...Hmm... Actually the food there wasn't that great, it's just the atmosphere makes you wanna buy and eat (especially I miss those food as well).... =))

Anyway, such a tiring day... but that's my Chinese New Year during the weekend...
We already had our family dinner on Wed and Thursday night (Chinese New Year Eve and 1st day of Chinese New Year)...

Well, I hope you all have a Wonderful Chinese New Year 2008!!

2nd Saturday

[ one republic ] stop & stare

I have spent a few hours on Thur night to design a Birthday invitation card for my colleague as she's holding a 40th birthday celebration coming March... Love doing all these little project for people around me... (No, I didn't get to design my brother's wedding invitation... grrrr!!)

Saturday morning I received an sms "Movie today?" from him... Pissed me off again due to that sms for some reason... Look, if that sms was little longer and little nicer / polite, perhaps I would think about it... Even when I ask friends out, I would ask nicely with a longer sms to invite them to catch up or NOT to give them a sense of "just-want-to-kill-time-cos-Im-so-bored" kinda-thing! ...Well, Let's not talk about this cos I could blah-blah-blah the whole day...

Anyway, my weekend was quite nice... Though I didn't get to watch "Sweeney Todd" but we bought a new cordless phone with answering machine (to keep away those annoying telemarketing calls)... hehehe... We went shopping at High-Point because we need to find nice outfit for Bro's wedding!

I saw a pretty summer dress which is nice enough for the wedding, but I still need to shop a little bit more before I lock it in... =) ... Let's hope the pretty dress would still be available if I couldn't find any nice dress by mid Feb!! ....

Long Weekend

[ 楊宗緯 ] 洋蔥

I hope you have a great long weekend... cos mine was very boring... =/
Two long lost friends sms me this weekend as if they knew I'm free this weekend? ... but I have been VERY anti-social mood lately and I choose not to go out... and I spent my long weekend watching "3rd Rock from The Sun"...

I shall go for Summer Zoo Twilight next week and watch Sweedney Todds too as Rabbit highly recommended it!! ...(Oh come on! ...It will be good as it's Johnny Depp!!!)...

Half & Half

[ 蕭煌奇 ] 一半一半

I was just browsing around and came across this song...
The lyric is beautiful...

白天一半　晚上一半　善良一半　邪惡一半
男人一半　女人一半　真的一半　假的一半
白天一半　晚上一半　善良一半　邪惡一半
男人一半　女人一半　真的一半　假的一半

佛的世界一半　魔的世界也一半
你一半　我一半
這個世間　誰也無法統一另一半

努力好的一半　壞的一半自然減少
接受美好的一半　包容短缺的一半
努力好的一半　壞的一半自然減少
接受美好的一半　包容短缺的一半
才能擁有全面的人生

1st Saturday...

[ 盧巧音 & 王力宏 ] 好心分手

My 1st very own Saturday... on Australia Day...

I spent the day with a good friend whom I last seen since last November... to catch up, to bitch about the ups and downs in our lives (he blah-blah-blah more than I did!!), to eat and drink like people who hasn't eaten for ages, and to comfort each other! Though it was just a few hours in the afternoon, but it was still one great step to keep myself occupied...

Bro's family is home for dinner and I was busy playing with Russell (the doggy) with the tennis ball... I was meant to throw the tennis ball very hard on the floor so that it would bounce back in the air, and Russell could jump and catch it.... and I accidentally hit Russell's eyes with the tennis ball!!! ...I knew it was very painful because I hit it hard... Poor Russell was in pain and I felt terrible!!!! ...Thankfully after a few minutes of short rest, he was active and running about again.... *phew*... but I still feel terrible for hitting him... Poor Russell, I buy you pig's ears next time... =)

At the moment, I'm kinda at my anti-social mood... I wish not to meet anyone nor talk to anyone about anything... It's still very uncomfortable (with mixed feelings)... but I promise I'll come out and play when I have enough rest... Looking forward to March for my Tassie trip with Rabbit and my brother's wedding...

I'll spend some time working on my next project... I'll have more time now...

看清

[ 輕鬆玩樂團 ] 看清

He is not that into you... if he always walk ahead and leave you behind...
He is not that into you... if he doesn't reply your sms soon enough...
He is not that into you... if he doesn't share or include you in his life...
He is not that into you... if he is not willing to hold your hand in public...
He is not that into you... if he doesn't let anybody knows he is seeing you...
He is not that into you... if he says he is not ready for a relationship...

He is not that into you...
...if he doesn't even try to stop you from leaving him...

He is just not that into you...

No Need to Argue

[ dolores o'riordan ] loser

I used to question when I didn't understand why...
I used to confront when I knew something didn't add up...
I used to probe for an answer when I knew I won't get one...

I don't question now... I don't confront now...
And I certainly do not probe anymore...
Because if I did...
...the answers would still be unacceptable...
...more lies will be made to cover the trail...
...& communication won't work when one started to get defensive...

Funeral

[ the pretenders ] i'll stand by you

4 of us took 2hrs off to attend her mom's funeral today...
It was well presented and well organized... and the service was full of people... It was difficult for the family and it's not easy for us too to see the family grieve like that...

After the service, I went to say good-bye to her, and tears just started to build up & overflow... I think we kissed each other's lips instead of cheeks (unsure if it was accidental or not?)

Boundaries

[ santana feat chad kroeger ] into the night

I know enough now to start setting boundaries...
I see no reason for me to "let it be" when things just will not be...

Hobby & Interest

[ matchbox 20 ] how far we have come

I have never thought of what's the difference between hobby and interest... I always thought a hobby is something that we enjoy doing regularly, and interest is something that we like to do but may not get to do as often as a hobby?? (I think my guess was pretty close to the definition... kekeke... Yeah, whatever!)

So, does day-dreaming, sleep, food and surfing net considered as a hobby?

Be Strong

[ one republic ] apologize

I jumped into her car and wishing her Happy New Year, and asked how was her holidays... and her tears started to pour down from her beautiful eyes... Her mom has just passed away during the holidays due to heart attack.

I was so in shocked... her mom looked so healthy and great the last time I saw her... I didn't know what to say nor how to react, and all I could do was just putting my hand on her shoulder to show my support and comfort as she tried to tell me what happened while she was driving...

Later in the afternoon, I received another bad news... and I just couldn't contained myself... I thought I handled it well, but 15mins later, things just HIT me and I just had to let some tears out...

Anyway, such to start 2008... Let's hope the year will only gets better... It has to be...

Happy New Year 2008

[ one republic ] say all i need

Bye-Bye 2007... and Hello 2008!!

I have been moody and easily get agitated... I guess I was just a little scared, a little unsure, a little angry, a little confused, and a little upset especially as it gets closer for me to start my battle again ... So bear with me if I have been a little bitchy, mean, and short-fused recently... and may I apologize, if you happened to be the victim... =/

Back To Basic

[ 蔡健雅 ] 如果你愛我

Because of Cup Cakes and Krispy Kreme... I missed out all the ACTIONS... I also missed out getting it re-touched... I suppose there's always next time? ...Maybe I shall also do that as birthday present for myself... hehe... Anyway, I had a great day at St Kilda for lunch, at South Melb for Tea Pot hunt, and sang like a Superstar with PS3... FUN!

End of the day, I suggested "back to basic"... I don't really know why I did that when I had such a wonderful day... I guess I know the question will still come back to me if I avoided it tonight...

Anyway, I know I have done my part more than enough and it's not my problem anymore... Maybe it's just like Tanya's lyric...

總是全力以赴 保持日復一日的溫度
多少有幫助
繞過愛你的路 就讓回憶模糊
關上車窗再加速
需要的 我比你清楚

如果你愛著我 而我也愛著你
結果還是有段 跨不過的距離
這時離開 還依然美麗

如果說 我愛著你 而你卻比較愛自己
我想那就不是我的問題
那不過是 現代人的愛情

Undelivered Messages

[ massive attack ] teardrop

I remember the "right feeling".... I remember the "right ways"...
I know how things should have been if it was "right"...
I don't feel "right"... not now at all...
I wouldn't have missed them if things were truly "right".... would I?

There's so many things I wanted to know... typed them out without sending them out... they then get deleted - yet not forgotten... They are still the unsolved mysteries and unspeakable issues..

Teardrop

[ massive attack ] teardrop

Love... Love is a verb... Love is a doing thing...
Teardrop in my eyes... most faithful my love...

空白格

[ 蔡健雅 ] 空白格

我们之间的空白格是何时形成的?



其实很简单其实很自然 两个人的爱由两人分担
其实并不难是你太悲观 隔著一道墙不跟说分享
不想让你为难
你不再需要给我个答案

我想你是爱我的 我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说总觉得
我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的 爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘分

Restricted

[ george michael ] kissing a fool

Love... and Passion...
...being restricted and contained...