Yummy Doc

[ thirsty merc ] 20 good reasons

I'm not sure about other places, but I reckon in Melbourne, most of the anesthesia doctors are so darn handsome and cute and cool and oh-so-my-type!!! ...

Today I had bronchoscopy done... I wasn't too nervous about it actually... not until the anesthesia doctor brought me to a room to explain to me the anesthetic procedure...

OMG!! He is soooooooooooooooo good looking!!! ...He has this very cool surgery hat sorta covered his clean shaved head (hehehe... I always have a thing for guys who looks cool in shaved head)... anyway, most of the other nurses or doctors there were wearing the standard blue surgery hat, except my anesthesia doctor... his surgery hat looks quite simple yet stylish and colorful... (It tells me that he is not the nerdy type of doctor, nor overly funky too.)

Ok, so he made a few jokes and made me relaxed a little, and I told him I started to get a little nervous... He then assured me that after he injected the drug, he will hold my hand during the whole procedures to make sure that I'll be fine... (Owwww... So sweet neh!!!!)...

At that time I had already changed to the hospital gown (yup just stripped down to my own socks & undies and covered with the hospital gown)... He was so observant... cos he spotted my tattoo (which only exposed just 0.5cm off my socks cos I think I stupidly pulled my white socks up way too high off my ankle, and I surely look so nerdy and funny!!!)...

So when he excitedly asked about my tattoo, I smiled and looked down, and saw how daggy I looked in those white socks which being pulled so high up... and noticed that I didn't apply any lotions on my legs today and my dried skin were all exposed and I could see some HAIRS on my legs too!? ...OMG!!!! ... I was so embarrassed!!! ...cos if he could spot that tiny bit of tattoo which was 95% covered by the socks... he surely could see my HAIRS and dried skin... HOW EMBARRASSING!!!! ...*faint*

Anyway, when they finally call me in to the theater... He was still so attentive to me, and made a few jokes that made everyone laughed too... He cheekily asked if he could see my tattoo... So I let him and he asked a few questions about tattoos as if he was also interested to get one as well... hehehe... Ain't he lovely??? ...

Well, I wanted to think that he was there holding my hand when I passed out... hehehhe... but I didn't get to see him after I woke up... and that's my 3hrs "crush" on my anesthesia doctors today... *muahahahhaha*

A Dream

[ edith piaf ] la vie en rose

It's been 4 days or nearly 5 days...
It's such a long time living the days without knowing what's the meaning of "living"...

I dreamt of something beautiful today...
How I wished that dream would come true and exist...

There was bread shop next door, there was noodle shop next door, there was dessert shop next door, and there was this sticky rice stall and night market hawker food stalls two blocks away (just like how I remembered those stalls from KL)...

We had a great time and walked back all the way in the middle of the night... It was dark but I wasn't afraid... It was cold, but I wasn't shivering... There were many $5 on the road side (some hanging from trees and on the roadside) that people couldn't be bothered to stop aside and pick it up...

We were happy... There were trust and believes... There were smiles and happiness... There were love and warmth... The sense of security and the feeling of "knowing"... Knowing that is "it"...

I hope I'd remember that feeling and the background settings in that dream... I hope I'd still feel that way when I remember this dream someday.... cos it's really like a little paradise to me... I know as time goes by, I will forget about having this dream and being there feeling like this... but now I just wanna crawl back to my bed, and feel that dream again...

Travel Companion

[ 周杰伦 ] 红模仿

Woke up this morning... felt a bit like a deflated balloon... unwilling to get up... Started to think about things that would make me feel good...

Thinking about my traveling dreams... hehe... The thought of traveling making me feel much better and energetic... Yup! I hope to travel overseas next year... woohoo!!

While I was thinking about traveling... the thought of traveling companion came into my mind... I have very few travel companions that I actually enjoyed traveling with... I guess to me, travel companion is as equally important as the chosen destinations... After all, travel companions do have great impact to the outcome of the travel experiences...

My ideal travel companion:-
: : Not more than 3 people (included myself)... Bigger group means troubles!
: : Must be taller than 160cm... Too hard to find you in the crowd...
: : Must have similar outlook/attitude and knows when to give & take...
: : Must know how to respect each others' privacy and personal space...
: : Must not whinge, complain and bitch about everything non-stop...
: : Must not talk-non-stop... My ears will hurt listening to you day & night...
: : Must not rush me here&there... I enjoy seeing more with my own pace...
: : Must be a bit adventurous & spontaneous... Don't be a si-si or princess!
: : Must enjoy eating real food... Stop your diet (lose weight) while traveling!
: : Must be decisive on what you wanna buy to avoid shopping whole day!

Okidoki... I think that's about it for today's blog...
I shall watch another episode of "The Silk Road" now...

Little Things In My Life Lately...

[ 蘇打綠 ] 小宇宙

Let's see... what's been happening in my life lately... hmm...

: : No more Korean/Chinese dramas & TV series... Enough is enough!!!
: : No more Animes (except NANA)... I'm still the fan of NANA... =)
: : Haven't watched any movies lately... Someone should asking me out?
: : Watching "The Silk Road" again... Want to visit China very soon!!
: : Crazy about 小松 lately... (day dreaming about him now)... *^_^*
: : Dusted off the drawing pad & pen to experiment a few new areas...
: : Trying NOT to get involved in office politics... Turning blind eyes...
: : Trying to learn how to meditate without falling asleep... hehehe...
: : Keeping a list of things that I am grateful of... expressing gratitude!
: : Started to use Lavender Body Lotion... Love the scent of Lavender!
: : Listening to more Mandarin Songs... Love the beautiful lyrics...
: : Can't wait until mid July (you know why if you're my close buddy)
: : Still want a pair of black shoes, and stock up some winter clothes....

Hmmm... I shall blog more often hey!? ...
Sometimes there's many things that I wanted to blog when I am not in front of the computer... but they all evaporated when I finally sat myself down...

Sometimes I'm feeling very tired after a long day... especially lately...
Sometimes parallel thinking stop me from blogging something spicy...

Charming...

[ 蘇打綠 ] 小情歌

I'm totally smitten by 小松... and this is for him... *^__^*

Happy Birthday Brandon

[ mandy ] happy birthday to brandon

It's my god-son -- Brandon's 1 year old birthday today!!! ...

I couldn't fly to Sydney to celebrate his birthday this year... *sob*sob*...
I'll do it next year... =))

Here's all the pressies he received for his 1st birthday...
He's sooooooooo happy hey!!!

Spending More Trying To Save

[ eason chan ] 烟味

We went site visiting today and it was quite fun checking out the different stages of the house constructions... Anyway, I was hoping to see how slab was done but we had no luck due to the wet weather these few days...

Anyway, we had lunch at Roxy's Subway before heading back to office... Due to it was already 1.30pm by the time I reached city... I thought it's probably not worth parking in the car-park (which cost $16 whole day)... so I decided to park my car at the 2hrs parking area outside my office cos I could easily move my car 2hrs later, and it would save me a few dollars (comparing to parking in the car-park)?? ...

3 hours later... a AUD54 fine was sitting on my car's windscreen with an evil smile... URGH!!!! ...#$%^$#^...

#@$%$&#^# ~ !!!

[ 信乐团 ] 离歌

@%#$%#... is all i could express for now and how i felt the past few days...
no idea how did i get through it last time...
no idea how i did it this time neither...

all i could do is... keep listening to "The Secret"...

海 阔 天 空

[ 信乐团 ] 海阔天空

疯言疯语

[ 孙燕姿/蔡健雅 ] 原点

关心太少，会被说成无心或冷淡。
关心过量，会变成喋喋不休的唠叨。
关心得不适时，却是何等的多余。

喜欢沉默，因为沉默能让人听见很多很多声音。
喜欢沉思，因为沉思默想的过滤让人思绪更清晰。
喜欢将自己抽离现实，去反省和客观的琢磨现实的细节和人生百态。

不想多言，但并不带表不懂。
不想表达，因为没必要让人认同。
每个人的人生观，人生阶段，和人生经历都不同；
亲身经历和体验而继以领悟，不更加巨有说服力吗？

Red Shoes

[ 陈奕迅 ] 烟味

I didn't buy these shoes when I first saw them weeks ago, cos I couldn't decide which one shall I get... I love both of them!! ...And I was going to get a pair of black and a pair of red.

I finally have time to shop this weekend, and these red shoes are half the price of the black ones... And being a cheapskate like myself, I would not pay $45 extra just for the black color in same style! ...(Well, looks like I still have to shop for a black pair of shoes, because I do need a pair of black ones for work.)

Anyway, choosing the colors wasn't the highlight for today at all... and just so you know, my right foot is actually half size bigger than my left foot... So I actually had to try on size 8 and size 8.5 for both styles to see which sizes were more comfortable before I get them...

Due to there's many people in the shop browsing and trying on shoes, and there were only two sales persons... I took the chance without thinking twice (I still don't really know where did I get the courage to do this)... I put a size 8.5 (right) and a size 8 (left) into the boxes...

I have never done this before and I just thought if I get caught by the sales person, I'd just pretend that I placed the wrong size's shoes in the boxes then - no big deal... After all, I'd tried on so many of them and it's quite easy to get all mixed up!? ...

Anyway, I pretended to be cool when I paid for them at the cashier... and they didn't even bother checking if those shoes were both in the same sizes in those boxes...

For once in my life time, I actually get to wear the RIGHT sizes of shoes on both my left and right feet comfortably (without having my left foot always compromising my right foot)!! ...hohoho...

The Things My Ex Said To Me...

[ guns n roses ] november rain

Well... Last week my ex in Miri dropped me a message requested for my brother's email... (Why he wants it? ...No idea... I didn't try to find out.) Anyway, I sent an email to get my brother's consent before giving out his email to my ex... but bro didn't reply me regarding that... and we have totally forgotten about that too when we went out during the Easter weekend...

Today, my ex kindly asked for my brother's email again... I told him I have already sent an email to my brother but he hasn't replied... and my ex was surprised that I emailed my brother... So, I told him that it's not an urgent or important matter, hence I emailed my brother instead of calling him straight away? ...and then the below conversation started...

[my ex] says:
How come you have become like this, ooki?
[ m ] says:
...dont understand ur question...
[my ex] says:
never mind....
[ m ] says:
like wat? ...i'm just being direct... hehe... that's the truth as well...
[my ex] says:
when you were with me... and when I had problems in marriage... you tell me you know why my wife feels like that... cos I'm like this and like that right?... well I accept the problem in me... I guess what u felt was wat my wife felt abt my attitude....
[my ex] says:
Now... let me tell you this as a friend k
[my ex] says:
I know why guys tend to break with you... I noticed it last time... but i never said anything... cos I did love you once...
[my ex] says:
To me you'll always be that special girl...one i loved... but you can be quite stubborn with your opinion... and kinda hard to understand tat...
[my ex] says:
but it's ok now... we have our own problems...
[my ex] says:
nobody is perfect
[my ex] says:
I know it's "not important" for you to call your bro... but by the mere fact that you said "not important" shows me something
[ m ] says:
thanks for the ...erm... what do you call those? ...lolx
[my ex] says:
thanks for nothing perhaps?
[my ex] says:
but anyway... as long as you're happy with yourself... that's fine
[ m ] says:
anyway, u seemed surprised that we emailed each other... hence i explained... lolx... cos i dont call my brother if there's nothing urgent... usually we'd email during working hours cos we're all busy...
[my ex] says:
dont worry or care abt what others feel...just be yourself
[ m ] says:
exactly... =)) ...
[my ex] says:
it's fine...

Easter Saturday

[ elton john ] your song

Such a beautiful day...
I was invited to go out by the warm and cloudless day... =)

I went to Officeworks nearby to get printer ink, yet there's no stock... so I went all the way to High-Point to hunt for my printer inks... Man, they are not cheap... but at least I could now print out the songs I wanna learn... =)

I saw a pair of nice boots!!!!
I saw a pair of pretty red shoes!!!
I saw a beautiful black shoes!!!

I think I need a new pair of shoes now!!! ... =)
And I need more winter clothes too!!! ...
And I want to watch "300" soon...

(Ahhh... I love "Your Song" so much... let's see if I could find the scores and play that!)

Good Friday

[ yuna ito ] endless story

Long waited Easter break has finally arrived, yet there wasn't any big plans...

Oh yeah, my car (the old bomb) has finally broken down due to old age... I noticed last week that it was noisier than usual... It sounded exactly like those modified sports car - very loud, yet POWERLESS... hehehe... Oh well, the exhaust pipe sorta broke, hence the noise... Funny how it had chosen to break down at the right time, cos dad has just bought a brand new sedan, and I'm now inherited his previous car... *grin*... Anyway, I had been spending the afternoon cleaning the car and transfer stuff from the old bomb... (So what shall I name this car?? ...Hmm...)

Later in the evening, we dine at Jade Restaurant at Chinatown... Luckily brother made reservations a day earlier because that place was quite full and many walk-in was turned down due to they didn't make reservations earlier... Anyway, the tea was yummy, the food was GREAT... We all felt so content walking out with full big tummy... Ahhhh... This is what we called great food... =)

I started to doodle some stuff on my sketchbook again...
I have also found some piano scores too, but yet to replace the printer ink so that I could print them out... =/

In Love with NANA

[ yuna ito ] endless story

Few months ago, I came across this brief intro of an anime called "NANA"... For some reason, I thought to myself that I will like this anime...

Last month, I walked past a shop in Chinatown with a friend (normally I wouldn't care to check out this shop because it looks dodgy?)... But for whatever reason, we walked past that shop that day, and I actually stopped and turned around to check out the DVDs in that shop (for the 1st time)... And just as I was about to finish browsing the last shelf, the movie version (aka live-action) of "NANA" presents itself in front of me... and I bought it... and I watched it... and I love it...

I have now started watching the anime version of "NANA"... Absolutely in love the beautiful drawings and the in-depth emotions of the characters in NANA... It's much better than the movie version of course... and I love all the songs in both Movie and Anime!!! ...

Well, NANA is an anime about friendships, punk rock bands, and romance... Hence there's lotsa nice songs in it... And Black Stone / Blast (Nana's Band) and their rival Trapnest plays beautiful songs in both the Movie and Anime... Couldn't help myself but to share with you all...

[ Yuna Ito ] Endless Story
Movie version of NANA


[ Black Stone / Blast ] Kuroi Namida
Anime version of NANA


[ Trapnest ] A Little Pain
Anime version of NANA

Promise Has Finally Realized...

[ mika nakashima ] glamorous sky

My dearest friend Doki is coming to Melb in mid April!! ...
I'm so excited...
The promise has finally realized after 15yrs...
How would things be without any promises in the future, I wonder...

Doki, you can be the one who shave my head... =)

Hustler N'ever

[ anna tsuchiya ] kuroi namida

Haven't played snooker at Hustler for probably just 5 weeks or 6 weeks? ...but it felt like I haven't played for ages... Even that part of the memories seemed so far away already (a sign of moving on? ...lolx!) ...Anyway, I was back to playing Snooker tonight and it's the first time we played 3 games in one night (a great sign of improvements... heeee!!!)

I figured a person's personality or character easily be revealed from playing Snooker (or any other games)... Just like those who plays Poker or Mahjong... I couldn't believe I saw so many flaws in him tonight... and I don't think I like him anymore... AH-HAHAHHAA!! ...(I'm serious ...I don't anymore!!)...

Well, I know nobody is perfect... but I personally couldn't tolerate someone who enjoy showing off and then have this proud and "oh-i-am-so-good-kinda-look" stamped on their face... For example, he was aiming at this pink ball and said, "usually it is really hard to get this ball into this pocket" and then he confidently hit that bloody pink ball into the pocket!! ...and then that "oh-i-am-so-good-kinda-look" would shows on his face while he walked around the table to have his next shot... Of course, the whole night I have told him off about his showing off character...

Another thing that I found it weird, was that he was so damn calculative... I mean, he really wouldn't give in any points at all... Even the guy who was playing at the next table looked at me and gave me this amusing smiled of what he over heard...

What happened was I accidentally hit a white ball straight into the pocket... and we forgot to add those points into his total and we played on until he suddenly remembered, and despite already had higher points than me by milesssssss, he still insisted to add that extra 4 points onto his total without waiving it off... (I honestly believe any other GENTLEMAN would have waived that 4 points when they play with any female or weaker opponent)... =/

Anyway, I think I have improved, that's why he felt threatened... AH-HAHAHAHA!! (yeah right!)

Clarity...

[ muse ] unintended

I've just realised that... I have mistaken "understand and accepting" as "positive"... No wonder I always felt that there's missing pieces somewhere or things just couldn't make sense...

This morning I woke up and thought things through slowly, about my approach of "being positive" and trying to find out what went wrong... and I smiled... as with the help of the "Law of Attraction" and "The Buddha, Geof and Me"... I finally understand that, I am actually killing myself with the way I used to think...

There's a sense of clarity within me now... as the more I understand... the more I liked the way how everything just so make sense...

I am happy today, as I found the light... the clarity... the answer... and the meaning... =)

Melb Food & Wine Fest - Cafe Di Stasio

[ nat king cole ] l.o.v.e

It's Melbourne Food & Wine Festival... Many restaurants offer special menu for bargaining price... Absolutely a great chance to eat great food... hehe...

We went to Cafe Di Stasio at Fitzroy Street, St Kilda for 2 course meal ($30) today... It has this Tuscany type of decorations (the wall and the wall lamp status) and the waiters all stand very straight and extremely professional... Though it is not a very spacious restaurant, the dim atmosphere gives us a very comfy and classy feelings...

Once be seated, every table will be given a bottle of imported water (which you'll find out it's been added onto your bill end of the meal... hehe... *evil smile*)... Well, we all decided to have Entree + Main Meal... so that we could go somewhere else for Dessert... hehe... Smart yeah?! ...*wink*...

Hmm... The food was not too bad and it's small portion (but we still came out feeling full)... Not a "wow" factor kinda food, but we don't have any complains neither...

Anyway, the only eye-popping thing was the bill that shows the 2 bottles of water were almost $10 EACH!! ...!@#@#$%... No wonder the waiter kept asking us if we still want more water all the times... hmmmph!!

After that we went to The Old Paper Shop Deli at South Melbourne for a cuppa and desserts before shopping around at South Melbourne Market... and visit the Chinese Temple at South Melb before we went home...

Kiroro - 長い間

[ kiroro ] 長い間

This is one of my all time favorite Japanese song "長い間" by Kiroro... Kiroro may not have a very outstanding appearance, but her beautiful and unique voice captured my heart...

Anyway, this beautiful song was "copied" by a Taiwanese singer and made it into Mandarin version... I heard my brother told me the other day, that Kiroro sang the Mandarin Version in one of her mini concert in Taiwan, and she still beat the Taiwanese singer by 100 miles!!! ...

To those who have heard the Mandarin version by the Taiwanese singer... Here's Kiroro's Mandarin version of this song! ... =)



(Note: Does anyone has the original piano sheet for this song? ...I wanna learn how to play this song toooooooooooo!!)

Skinny Dipping

[ 孙燕姿 / 蔡健雅 ] 原点

I wasn't feeling too well yesterday because mind was so worried over 2nd May... The memory was haunting me... the taste of it, the journey of it made me felt like vomit yesterday...

Today, I'm feeling great... I guess knowing what I need to do next is good... much better than not knowing...

Anyway, suddenly remember a friend told me about how they spent the bucks night last Saturday... It was so creative and so thrilled... They made the groom wear female dress and put on make-up and stood at the corner of Lonsdale and Russell Street holding a big sign requesting for free hug from female... CUTE! ...Then they went to St.Kilda Beach for skinny dipping!!! ...ARRGH!!!! ...Sound so fun!!!

Rabbit... I regret not going Skinny Dipping while we were at Great Ocean Road... Do you think you would do something like that spontaneously? ...I wonder who would join me if I suddenly strip myself bare and skinny dipping... hehehe... Anybody?! ... =P

Sometimes it's cool to do something crazy...

Piggy in your palm...

[ akon ] i wanna love you

It's not even a month since... our communication has dropped drastically...
We don't email like we used to... We don't sms like we used to...
We don't joke like we used to...
We don't see each other much like we used to...

You still sms me at night (except Fri/Sat) to remind me to sleep early...
You still shoot me extremely short email to say "HI" every morning...
You still burn me DVDs when there's some good movies/animes...
You still request me to make you Honey Lemon Tea occasionally...
You remember to send me the Origami I asked for a few weeks ago...
You always tell me you are holding the cute little piggy in your palm...

I have been so occupied with my own problems...
I probably have distance myself from you...
I probably have restrained myself from initiate to sms/email you...
But I have never failed to reply your email if you send me one...

Anyway, I know you miss me sometimes... so am I...
But the timing is just not right...
Sorry...

Expecting the expected...

[ mika nakashima ] glamorous sky

Sometimes when there's uncountable uncertainties... When we don't know our current condition or status... It is absolutely hard to make any decision based on all the unknown, isn't it?

Most of the times, we spend too much time trying to figure out what we want, and what's the best for us, and yet still couldn't come up with an answer... Well, instead of trying to figure out what we want or what's best... perhaps it's easier to work backwards - to find out what we don't want and slowly work out what's the best for us or what we want? ...

I don't want to regret one day for not doing enough... Regrets is not want I want... Hence, I have chosen to go down that path again... thinking about it already making me feel sick to the stomach and wanna vomit... It's not going to be easy, I know... and it takes a lot to be strong mentally...

I shall be fine... I will be fine... 3 months passes by quick... I hope...
It's only 4 times, this time round... I'll be fine...

Back To Deep End... Again!

[ mika nakashima ] hitoiro

Not feeling well today... Absolutely pissed off with everything...
This is the 2nd scan... and I know it's not going to work again...

My patience has been put to test and I have reached the point where I just feel so damn helpless... I have hit the point and I just hate the fact that I have to wait longer... I just don't know what to do...

Wait...Wait... Wait ...
How long will I have wait in order to get the damn answer in order to move on? ...

Endless deep end...

Almost Perfect Guys

[ edith piaf ] la vie en rose

Ever experience a number of good things happening to you that you actually couldn't believe that you were so lucky at that time? ...Ever experience bad things followed by one after another that you kept asking, "why me?"...Ever came across so many "almost perfect guys" within just a few days, that makes you wonder if your Mr.Right will appear soon? ...hahahha...

Lately, I noticed there's quite a numbers of "almost-perfect-guys" around me... They all suddenly crossed path with me this weekend... Actually they are all my close friends whom we don't often meet up (hence, "Almost-Perfect")... hehehe...

Anyway, I categorized them into great partner, great companion and great hubby type according to their personality and character... Unfortunately, they are just "almost perfect" to me... cos there's absolutely no sparks nor chemistry between us... =/

Perhaps it's never easy to move out from the so called "friend zone"...
Perhaps being friends and known each other for too long = No Sparks!?
Perhaps I am not even interested in moving out from my comfort zone... =)

Bluntness Friday

[ system of a down ] chop suey

Woke up so damn early in the morning and drove all the way to find out my scan appointment is actually on Monday!?! ...My doctor has been telling me it's on Friday Friday Friday... and I received the appointment confirmation letter, yet I didn't check if it was truly on Friday... AIKS!! ...Thankfully I didn't missed my appointment after all the mixing up!! ... *phew*!!!

I had a bit of time on my hand after work and I went shopping... Bought two working pants at REVIEW and my bank account hurts indeed... but when it comes to pants, I'm willing to spend cos I hardly find a perfectly fitted pants at all...

By the way, it's my mum's birthday but we didn't celebrate at all... We have arranged to go out for luncheon next weekend instead... =)

Anyway, I still feel the pain over "Bokura Ga Ita"s ending... *get over it, silly!!*

End of "Bokura Ga Ita"

[ gary jules ] mad world

Finally finished watching "Bokura Ga Ita" - the Japanese Anime that I am so fond of... It is such a beautiful Anime (artwork and story wise)... I like the fact that it is so simple and so beautiful and the narrations were so close to heart...

But but but but but... the ending... Arghhhhhhhh!!!! ...I have been raging over and over again to my friend (who recommended this Anime to me)... I don't understand why would the writer wanted to end it that way... Perhaps they wanted to make a mind blowing and heart wrenching to all the viewers so that we all will forever remember this piece of work hey!? ...

I haven't watched an Anime that made me feel this way...
I actually cried over the ending... It was so... so real...

"Bokura Ga Ita" - He and She were 15yo...
I can't wait for the story about them when they turned 21yo to be released in July...
I can't wait... I can't wait... I need something else to divert my attention from this... URGH!!

Sydney Trip (10-13Mar)

[ 温岚 ] 爱回温

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Sydney - Day 1 (March 10) :-
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Arrived at Sydney airport at 8.45am and wait for Kelvin before we went to my friend's place... Happy Brandon still look pretty much the same as I last visited (6 months ago)? ...Brandon is now 9months old and he craws and he smiles!!! ...So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

We went to Fish Market for fresh oyster, and prawns and seafood platters to indulge ourselves... The last oyster I had was a bit off, but overall the food is good and the atmosphere was great!! ...Sydney's Fish Market located right at the Bay and watching over the boats and sea and the ANZ bridge and of course the beautiful day with lotsa sunlight was the bonus!! ...

We then went separate ways as the Yoon Family needs to take some rest... and they dropped us off at Pitt Street & QVB (Queen Victoria Building) where we could do some window shopping! ...We then walked to Chinatown before catching the train back to Paramatta to get changed and ready for dinner at friend's place for dinner...

After dinner, we went to have the beautiful pie and hot dog at Harry's Cafe de Wheels at Cowper Wharf Roadway, Woolloomooloo... I think they have the best Pies and Hot Dog in the world... hehehe... This is one of the MUST GO and MUST TRY on my list if you ever visit Sydney... =) ...Anyway, it was nearly 2am by the time we got home and went to bed... Such a full on 1st day for all of us... =)

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Sydney - Day 2 (March 11) :-
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Everyone woke up late... and went to Marigold at Chinatown for YumCha... I thought I wouldn't enjoy YumCha (cos too much of it the previous months?) but I actually enjoyed it very much!! ...Great food there and some that we don't have in Melb at all... very interesting indeed!

We then took the Monorail and sat in there for one full round just to sight seeing before we got off at Central Station near Pitt Street to walk to The Rock from there...

There's Sunday Market at The Rock and I love it there and I can never get sick of that place... I didn't walk with my friends because I just wanted to enjoy the experience by myself... slowly browsing and taking my own time... I bought a big ring that made of shell... I wanted to get the wooden ring too but I guess I forgot to make my way back to the stall after browsing around... =/ ...next time shall go back and get more funky stuff!!

Anyway, the water front and the wharf at the back and the view of Sydney Opera House, and the view of Harbour Bridge is just so beautiful... We took the Ferry to Darling Harbour and again, I separated myself from the group to sit on the upper deck to enjoy some quiet moment and let the wind blows my troubles away... I enjoyed the Ferry trip soooooooooo much... peaceful and zen moment... hehehehe... of course the scenery is great... Shall do another Ferry trip next time I visit Sydney... =)

We got off at Darling Harbour where we had our yummy cakes and chocolate drinks at Lindt Chocolat Cafe! ...First in Sydney and I wonder when will they have one in Melb!? Walked around Darling Harbour and took some funny photos... =) ...Baby Brandon is cute, ain't he?! ...

Well, after all that, we went to Pancakes At The Rock (at Northmead)

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Sydney - Day 3 (March 12) :-
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I spent the day running in and out from the bedroom and the bathroom... DIARRHEA!! ...

I was feeling very worn out too after the full on and late nights the previous two days... Meant to meet up with another 2 friends today for dinner, but I couldn't make it... Felt terrible as I was actually looking forward to meet up with them... Alas!! ...I guess there's always next time, yeah? ... =/ ...

Anyway, I couldn't remember much about what I did that day as mostly spent indoor... kekekeke... and the HIGHLIGHT of the day was dinner... Brandon's dad made great porridge!!! ...I normally don't refill porridge but I had 2.5 bowl that night!! ...YumYum... Next time shall request him to make yummy Porridge for supper next trip... muahahahhaha!!!

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Sydney - Day 4 (March 13) :-
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Woke up early and started to pack up cos we had a flight to chase... The long weekend went by so quick... It doesn't felt like it's the 4th day at all... Hmmm... Definitely will come back again to visit Baby Brandon... =)

After we left Sydney... I heard Baby Brandon cried so hard...
I guess he missed us already... =P

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Final Note:
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I haven't visited all those places for ages... So many young couples (students) walking around... Reminds me of those days when I used to live in Sydney... Walked down all the roads and buildings... Old memories and feelings started to emerge... The buildings still standing tall, but we are so different now...

Sydney - A city where my love and hate collides...

Bokura Ga Ita @ We Were There...

[ system of a down ] aerials

I have just started watching a Japanese Anime called "Bakura Ga Ita"... It's such a beautiful anime and I enjoyed it so much that I actually wished that I didn't have to fly to Sydney for the long weekend (so that I could continue to watch the whole 26 episodes during the weekend? ...How sad huh!! ...haha) ...

Anyway, I stayed up until 1.30am and reluctantly went to bed, because I have a morning flight to catch at 7.15am!!! ...ARGHHHH... =/

Disappointment + Deep End

[ my chemical romance ] welcome to the black parade

I've been waiting for today for the past 3 weeks as today was meant to be the judgment day...

It is essential to stay relax and calm in order to get the body scan done... I walked in feeling quite relaxed, until the nurse using the baby needle to find my vein without any success... Well, try imagine having someone to poke the needle a few times and see if you could still remain calm and relax!?! ...Anyway, she ended up getting the Doctor to come in and help her out...

The rest was normal and not worth mentioning... and I went to work as usual with butterflies in my tummy as I know I'd be able to find out the result as soon as late afternoon... Patiently worked through the day in the office, and went for my late afternoon appointment to get the result...

As the Doctor called my name... I walked in and he slowly closed the door behind him and said to me, "Your scan result has came out but the scan result wasn't too good"...My heart sunk when I heard that because THAT sound pretty bad. As my eyes was about to produce some liquid... I heard him saying, "Don't get me wrong... the scan result actually wasn't clear enough for us to analyse because you wasn't relaxed enough... it's not that your result is bad at all"... (I nearly fell down from the chair!!)... I'm back to SQUARE ONE!! ...

Oh well... another scan to be arranged in the near future, and that only means - waiting waiting waiting again... I don't like to wait... I am frustrated as I couldn't plan ahead since I know nothing at all... I just want to deal with it so that I could move on... ahhh...

I guess the only positive thing come out of this is that I could probably enjoy my Sydney Trip coming weekend... I guess?

Déjà Vu

[ Kouya Ruten ] Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihohento

Spent almost the most day watching Animes (Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihohento (BKI), Nodame Cantabile, Death Note) and practicing Canon-D again and again (finishing Page 2, finally!!!)...

While I was watching BKI, I thought the theme song sound very very familiar... I have heard it before but I couldn't remember where or when... It's such a strange feelings... Déjà Vu... I thought...

And guess what? ...Around late afternoon, friend called to see if I wanna go out and watch movie... We checked through the list of movies and decided to watch Déjà Vu... What a coincidence hey?! ...(but coincidence is just an effect where we can't see the connecting cause... I think... as they only happens because of cause and effects... blah blah)...

Anyway, I must say of all the time travel movies (Butterfly Effects and etc), Déjà Vu seems to work for me... lolx... It's quite entertaining, though a little slow at the beginning... I guess it's just because we're all too used to those fast pace actions movie nowadays and we are becoming a little impatience to wait for the movie to build up the story slowly...

Attached George Winston (who re-arranged Pachelbel's original "Canon-D") who's playing his variation of the "Canon-D"... the piece which actually inspired me to buy the digital piano after more than 14yrs of not playing piano... I am still practicing (up to 01:48 fluently and still practicing up to 02:40 as many finger works there that I still trying to find the right fingers at right notes to move faster)...

Feeling So Worn Out

[ cake ] i will survive

Such a busy week... I am feeling so worn out physically and mentally...

My treatment has started since last Wed, and leaving work at 330pm everyday only means that I have less time to deal with my workloads... I was so stressed up at work due to it was end of February and we worked very hard to achieve the target... End of the month is forever like that...

Monday
- monday bluessss as usual... Came home and burn some CDs (Animes) for my toyboy...

Tuesday
- saw my oncologist and I think he was so honest that it didn't leave me much positive thoughts to go home with... Though he did say some positive stuff, but I think I had selective hearing that day, as only negative ones registered in my mind... =(
- came home after work and treatment, and rushed out to meet up with Rabbit's friend who came from perth for dinner... Brought her to Sozai & Stoker, the places which Rabbit missed out on during her last visit...

Wednesday
- had two appointments today and I had to wait so long for both due to the nurses was taking their time!!!! ...so upset with the 5 West @ Melb Hospital!! ...Anyway, spent my night practicing Canon-D, and started to work on the handmade A3 size card for my colleague as it's her birthday on Friday... It's been a while since I last made a card so big, and by the time I finished designing and sticked those paper cutout onto it, it was already way passed midnight...

Thursday
- I made my toyboy a big mug of HOT Lemon Honey tea to make up for not able to reply emails this week... I left a cute little handmade clay piggy for him too, which I bought it on Sunday @ St Kilda... Was meant to meet up with Rabbit's friend tonight, but I couldn't make it cos I was too tired after so many late nights...

Friday
- Tulla freeway was closed due to accident... Pascoe Vale Rd's traffic was so bad as we were still there at 845am (an hour!)... We decided to go to Niddrie to park the car at my colleague's sister's place, and took the tram to Essendon train station, and take the train to city instead... And by the time we reached office, it was 10am!!!!! ...To top it up, I had to carry the Black Forrest Cake for my colleague's birthday!! ...I only started to dig into work at 11pm because of morning tea and birthday celebration... 330pm rushed out from office for my treatment and I forgot to pass something to IT guy... What a day?!!

Ahhhhh... this week hasn't been that smooth and that relax to me at all... This weekend definitely need to rest rest rest and not doing anything... because next weekend, I'll be flying to Sydney to meet up my beloved Brandon for the loooooooooooooooong weekend!!! ...

Canon D Jam Session

[ elton john ] your song

What a closing for Sunday night playing Canon D with Brother!!

He played Guitar and I played on my digital piano... It was awesome!!! ...Even though I screwed up all the times near middle of Page 2 (yeah this is as far as I have learnt, dammit!)... but it's just feel so great when playing guitar and piano together... the adrenaline and the excitement hearing brother putting a few creative bits to harmonize the piece... Absolutely brilliant!!! ...I'm much more motivated to play Canon D now... so that we could jam next time!!!

Other than that... While I was driving down to meet up Kelvin this afternoon, Elton John's Your Song played on the radio... Gosh... The beautiful melody touched my heart till my heart aches... Sometimes, some songs at certain time make me feel that way...

Anyway, we went to have big breakfast at North Road near the beach (Brighton Beach maybe?!)... and walked around the Sunday Market at St.Kilda beach before heading to Station Street at Prahran... Such a lovely place... Bought a pair of sandals cos it was cheap and I needed a nice one too...

I felt so much better today comparing to yesterday... but as I was typing this, I learned that he went to Footscray Lunar New Year Festival today... I could have gone to that Festival too to close the chapter (as a whole complete visiting LNY Festival in 2007) but I didn't... I guess I was lucky that I didn't go, because if I did, my Sunday may not be as beautiful... maybe... maybe...

Sydney... I might come as planned... =)
Brandon... Your god-mother miss you soooooooooooo much!!!!

Lonely Saturday

[ edith piaf ] la vie en rose

I hate today... I hate this weekend...
I'm glad today will end soon...
I hope tomorrow will get better... and better... and better each day...

Even though this is all expected and in my plans... but I guess we can never plan enough... at least not feelings... nor emotions... nor the thoughts that still linger somewhere? ...

Watched "A Good Year"... Beautiful... Absolutely beautiful...
Watched "The Illusionist"... Brilliant... Absolutely brilliant...
Watched a bit of the Anime "Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto"...
Watched "Arahan"... a substitute for "My Sassy Girl"...
Practiced "Canon D"...

The End and The Begining

[ 王菀之 ] 我真的受伤了

The week seemed so long, so dull, so slow and so low...
Our beautiful affair has finally came to an end today...

Our journey has been pretty smooth and cool from start to end...
...like it's meant to be...
If it wasn't becos we didn't have much workload end of last year...
...We wouldn't have had started the beautiful & excited affair...
If it wasn't becos of Lunar New Year and Valentine's day...
...We wouldn't have had so much fun and memories to remember...

This week, I have started my battle that I must face alone...
This week, you have to go back to where you belong...
And...
Our beautiful affair ended with the Honey+Lemon tea I made you today...

Game, baby... Game...
(Inspired by "Jeux d'enfants")

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[ 王菀之 ] 我真的受伤了
灯光也暗了 音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了

电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了

灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了

Slow Down, Monday...

[ 3 days grace ] pain

Took a day off for Lunar New Year... Feeling rather lazy in the morning (cos I still haven't started tidying my room!)... so I ended up spending most of my morning playing digital piano - Canon D!

During lunch time I watched "The Prestige" while having my lunch, but I just couldn't get into it at all... I think the weather was getting better and I just wanted to get out there to meet up with the Sun?? ... heeeee ...And off I went to High-Point to shop and I saw a pairs of white shoes, but they don't have my size!!! ...URGH!!)... I'll hunt it down in city this week...

I spent nearly 1hr ++ at Borders Bookshop... Enjoying a cuppa Latte while reading "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom... Managed to finish reading it while I was there!! ...The book is quite easy to read... I saw this book last week and the title captured my attention... Thought I should read a few chapters but to my surprise too I managed to finish reading the whole book!

Anyway, I bought "Tuesdays With Morrie" by the same author today... Gary's recommendation... and I read the first few pages, and I like it... I'm sure it's one of those book that I'd wanna keep...

I also bought "The Buddha, Geoff and me" by Edward Canfor-Dumas... Kelvin lend me this book the other day and I'm still reading it at the moment... I just couldn't stressed how much I love this book... I found myself so connected to Geoff (the person in the book)... It's a book full of gold... and I read it slowly because there's always things for me to digest and think before I move on to next page... I love this kinda books that makes me think... (just like "The Philosophy Gym" by Stephen Law... It's another book which make me think - in different manner!)

Anyway, I could see myself slowing down my life and started to do more reading again... I'll have more time for myself... I'll have more time for my body to recover... I'll slow down... I'll start doing some exercise (I went swimming today!!)... I'll start eating healthy... I'll start listening to my body... I'll start to be good to myself...

You know what? ...The word "BUSY" in Chinese is "忙"... and if we cut them into half and separate both character, it will read "Heart + Dead"...

Slow down... Slow down...
Slow down to smell the flowers...
Slow down to feel the breeze...

Lunar New Year - Crown

[ hinder ] lips of an angel

(Still loving this song... Still playing on my play list all the times... Still think he's an angel sent down to distract me from the living nightmares that soon to come...)

Today is the FIRST day of Lunar New Year!
Happy Lunar New Year everyone!!! 恭喜恭喜!! 恭喜发财!!

Lunar New Year doesn't mean too much to me nowadays, as we don't have any relatives/friends whom we could celebrate with... Every Lunar New Year would remind me of how fun and happy it used to be when we were still living in Msia. We had lotsa relatives and friends to celebrate with... We played firecrackers... We ate lotsa cookies... We worn our new outfit to welcome the New Year... We played card games and mahjong with our beloved cousins... We CELEBRATED with style!!

Anyway, received an sms and went out to meet up at 1230pm... Went to Crown Casino to check out the Lunar New Year celebrations... Not as good as the previous years... and it was too hot too (38 Celsius Degree again)... Went into Casino to walk around, and there wasn't any movies that suit our time... So we went back to Footscray to play Snooker again...

This time round I beaten him for once!! ...but that's because he gave me 20points head start and he actually set up a lot of balls for me to hit... So kind huh!! ...Anyway, I still need to work on my posture and aiming skills... I like playing Snooker than playing pool...

Well, we left around 5pm as he has family dinner to attend, and so was I... I actually didn't expect to meet up with him today, cos he has a big family here in Melb and today is the 1st day of Lunar New Year and he was meant to spend it with his family and relatives instead... but he came out to spend the afternoon with me... which makes me feel a very special indeed... =) ...

Coming week, I'll be starting my treatments and I believe things will start to change then... We, will change... I, will change... It's time to end the game this few days... cos I have already gotten more than I should have taken... and it's more memorable to end it when it is still at it's peak...

Lunar New Year Eve - Sunshine

[ hinder ] lips of an angel

Finally had the chance to watch one of the movie which I've always wanted to watch - Bichunmo. It was not as good as I expected it to be... Well, I probably should have watched it when it first came out during 2000... I probably would have thought it was good back then...

Anyway, I fell asleep a few times watching it on my comfy bed as the storyline is kinda predictable and it was so hot in Melb (38 Degree Celsius)!!

It's one of those day that I actually felt like I should have gone out instead of staying at home... Sorta suggested to a friend to go Crown Casino or BoxHill as there's Lunar New Year celebrations tonight... So off we went after dinner... It was crowded but there's nothing much to see though... Not as many stalls as the previous few years... Probably it was too hot, yeah?!

Received an SMS which made my night much more interesting... I drove to Sunshine to meet up and went to Sunshine's temple... It was so crowded as there's so many Vietnamese there... Squeeze into the temple to pray... Watched a little bit of Dancing Dragons and saw a little Fire Crackers...

Spending Lunar New Year Eve at Sunshine reminded me of Malaysia so much... Many families and houses light up Fire Crackers like nobody cares (it's actually illegal in Australia)... There was polices and securities making sure the traffic flows throughout the night, but they didn't bother the Fire Crackers at all...

I missed Malaysia's LNY celebrations...
I missed my friends, and I missed my beloved cousins...

[ 1st time - visiting Sunshine Temple ]

Hinder - Lip Of An Angel

[ hinder ] lip of an angel

Heard this song on the radio for the 1st time on my way to work... fell in love with it immediately...

Memorable Valentine's Day

[ hinder ] lips of an angel

It's Valentine's Day today!! ...Reached office and handed out all the beautiful roses to all the girls in my Dept as well as my manager, Wendy and Elaine... They loved it!!

Well, I left office during noon for another appointment... Went to the wrong hospital and had to rush to the correct ones! ...How careless huh!!!? ...Anyway, as I expected... I wouldn't know what kinda arrangements until PET scan result comes out... and the appointment for PET scan is March... *sigh*

Anyway, I didn't manage to give him a rose last night, and I didn't feel like giving him today at all... It's like THAT spontaneous moment is long gone and I don't feel right to do it anymore, even though he said he'll wanna have it if it has rotten or overdue...

I told him I was leaving work early cos I had an appointment... and that's when I found out he actually sent me flowers but the delivery hasn't arrived... What a pity... He wasn't very happy and that's when I decided to buy some Sunflowers (everyone knows I love Sunflowers and that shall remind him of me! ...haha)... And then NEW IDEAS started to flow in... (Special thanks to Kelvin for helping me arrange the beautiful Sunflowers)

Anyway, to cut the story short... I told him I was going to leave "something" on his car so that when he could get it when he finished work... Due to traffic jam, I thought I wasn't going to make it to his car before him did, as I wasn't that familiar with how to get to his train station... Anyway, I was pretty lucky that I made it and got there early... *woohoo*... I then put lotsa Yellow Post Notes to stick around his car with some instructions to where to find the "thing"... and I drove to the side lane to hide... hehe

He arrived 5 mins later (the time was indeed so tight, that I had butterflies in my tummy!!!!)... He called me on the phone, and we both laugh becos he was quite surprised to see his car was full of Yellow Post Notes... Quite a scene and lotsa people turning heads... haha... And he started to look around his car, up and down and below to find the thing I told him I left for him... and he kept telling me on the phone that he couldn't find it and asked if it was possible that someone has took it? ...I was hiding nearby and I was laughing hard cos it was hilarious to see him kept looking underneath his car and around his car like a lost soul...

Unfortunately I couldn't use my phone to take photos or video at that moment because he was on the line talking to me while doing his search... URGH!!!! ...Anyway, I then slowly walked towards him and had my Sunflowers hide behind my back... As I walked closer, he then saw me... and we both laughed and I gave him the Sunflowers and he gave me a big warm hug... People was watching, and one driver drove pass and honked us... I'm such a genius romantic, ain't I!!!? ...

Anyway, we stayed there and talked a little before we both went separate ways... It's a cool Valentine's Day... I'm sure we all have had some memorable ones in our past... but this year to me, is the most memorable ones, because I've never done something such cool before, and the funniest thing is that... we are closed but we are not lovers... and I'm loving the fact that we are not lovers but we could do things like this without any worries... =)

I guess we are a little bit like the movie "Love Me If You Dare" (original French titled "Jeux d'enfants")... We both do challenge each other at times and it's always game times... as it's the journey that counts... =)

Valentine's Eve

[ beyonce ] irreplaceable

Left work early for an appointment...

Quite uncomfortable knowing too much details... understand more of how it travels... understand the chances... and knowing what's the worst outcome... yes... scares me...

There's more arrangements and busy schedules in the coming weeks and future... I'm fully prepared... Just couldn't wait to start all that so that I could feel good again...

Went to buy a bunch of Roses because tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and I wanna give all the girls in my Dept one each... For I love them to bits and i hope they'll find love soon!! ...(all of us are still single, and only one 23yo is married)...

Good food comforts me... We went to Malaya Inn at Doncaster for dinner... I was fine, I am prepared, I am good, and I am full after dinner... yet my body didn't feel that way, as my tummy upset again... I guess my body and my mind doesn't agree at all... I guess I must have boxed my emotion and feelings away from my mind, but deep down I'm still feeling upset and nervous, hence my tummy hasn't been feeling well? ...hmmmph...

Suddenly wanted to pass him a rose... It was a spontaneous thoughts... It's too risky to pass him a rose tomorrow (Valentine's Day)... Hence, if not now, then never... I thought... and unfortunately, he couldn't come and pick it up due to he was somewhere else with his dad fixing something... Oh well, it's not meant to be then... =/

Arrived home, dad saw the flowers that Kelvin gave me (beautiful Roses)... and he told me there's some more in the living room... "Some More"?? ...I didn't get it... So, I went to living room to find out what he meant by "some more"... Woooaah!!! ...Gerbera Bouquet!!! ...I didn't expect that!! ...It was from sweet Gerald... *^_^* ...He said Gerbera was the closest to Sunflowers that he could find... =) ...Thanks Gerald... (Now everyone knows you sent me flowers... kekekeekeke... *bleh*)

Lunar New Year - Springvale

[ my sassy girl ] i believe

Woke up pretty early as I was excited about today! ...Anyway, we met up at 12pm and off we went to play snooker at Footscray... I did quite well (thanks to my friend great skill in hitting the white ball into the hole... hiak hiak hiak!)... but the 2nd game, I was trashed badly (I think my points were less than 10)... ish! ...

After the game we went to Chadstone to shop... We went to Sushi Sushi for sushi and just as we sat down and he was about to have his first bite of the sushi, I asked him a question and he had to stop putting the sushi into his mouth and answered me.. and just as he started to put the sushi near his mouth again, I shoot him another question, and again he had to stop and answered me... I think I repeatly asked him 5 questions until he stopped and asked me if he could take the 1st bite of his sushi first before I asked any more questions!? ...lolx... OMG! ...That was hilarious and we both laughed so loud till everyone was looking at us... *aiks*

We went to shop around after we bought the movie ticket "A Night At Museum"... and we bought the very unhealthy Krispy Kreme... Yum Yum but I only had one cos I was pretty full from Sushi... The movie alright as it's a kiddy's movie...

I guess it was round 6pm that we started to go to Springvale for Lunar New Year Festival... It was so crowded and we had to park the car at the race course show ground and paid $5 entrance fees (what the hell?)... It was definitely better than the Richmond LNY Festival last weekend... Bought some food to eat and squeezing in the crowd like Sardine Fish... Played some stupid funfair game and won a white rose that made by some soft material...

1st time being carried up and nearly being thrown into the bin, thankfully the bin's lid was closed!!! ...How to get away with it? ...Well, you think my big mouth only for eating great food? ...Nah, you're wrong... I bite too... and I bite people hard! ....kekeke...

Well, had some junk food there and head back to Melb cos we had enough of the crowded place... Drove to the Temple near Sunshine to have a long chat... There was only a star in the sky... Saw a Rabbit... The joke of the day was -- Van & Hatchback...

And the highlight of the day goes to... the long heart to heart chat under the sky that had only one star shining upon us...

[ 1st time - Springvale LNY ]
[ 1st time - movie at Chadstone ]
[ 1st time - being carried and nearly being thrown into the bin ]
[ 1st time - toyboy ]

Unpleasant Result...

[ gwen stefani ] wind it up

Busy occupying myself with all the files in front of my desk the whole morning... Trying to stay calm and focus, yet preparing myself for the phone call that I had to make in the afternoon to collect the result...

Struggled to make the call... Tummy upset... Hands shaking...
Mind was soooooooo calm, yet body reacted totally opposite...

Result was told through the phone... busy making a few more calls to arrange further appointments... Updated my manager and agreed to let my team leader knows... Totally feeling well and calm at that point of time...

Finally came back to my own desk and let all information sunk in... Started to feel sick to the stomach... until I received the email from my team leader that my eyes started to fill with tears... Hold it back... Hold it back... Look up the ceiling... Dry up dry up... I tried and tried... but I broke down when a lady from another Dept walked pass gave me a big warm hug (cos she thought I was upset due to workloads)...

I went down stairs to get some fresh air... Felt so much better... Felt so bad to make the girls in my Dept worry about me, yet I couldn't tell them what was wrong... I... Don't want them to treat me any differently... Too much love, too much caring, making me weak... I have to be strong...

Just as I turned around and walked back to the building... I heard a loud whistle... Turned around and there he was, smiling... His smile was contagious... He noticed I cried before and he didn't ask... We went into the lift and didn't press the floor number... Joke a little and he squeezed my face so hard, I smiled... I felt so much better then... Sometimes I wonder if he was another angel who was sent to my rescue...

Came back to my Dept and apologized to the girls...
Talked about other things and everything went back to normal again...

Felt much better for having the chance to cry a little... That was the down point... but I managed to climb back and accept my destiny and prepare for the battles...

New Lump

[ kt tunstall ] other side of the world

Discover it...
Anxious about it...
Afraid of it...
Couldn't stop thinking about it...
Hate it...
Angry about it...
Worry about it...
Wanna get rid of it...

I had my 2nd chance... Will I get 3rd?

Lunar New Year - Richmond

[ ost my sassy girl ] i believe

We met up at 2pm and went to Brunswick to walk up and down as my friend has never been there before... The weather was HOT and it wasn't that pleasant to walk and shop as both of us sweat like mad...

Checked into this Cafe to have some desserts and drinks (he had pancakes + iced lemon tea, I had Peaches in Yogurt Red Wine Sauce + mango&strawberry juice)... Very Yummy... Had his first bite cheekily...

Had a bit of time on our hands, we went to play pool at Footscray... A smoke free pool playing place where there's not many people at all... I actually enjoy playing pool but I don't get much chance to learn as I don't have many friends who plays pool at all..

Anyway, we then headed to Richmond as there's Lunar New Year Celebrations. It was extremely hard to find parking there. And I guess it's nearly dinner time and there's more people coming out to join the festival and have dinner there (cos Richmond is not only a Vietnamese area, but its full of Asian restaurants)... We squeezed in the crowd to check out the food around... I was exhausted cos it was HOT and there's so many people, and the heat from the hawker stalls' cooking... I think I nearly fainted due to the heat... Luckily we stopped at the end of the road and sat on the floor to rest a while before we went into this restaurant to have dinner (there's air-condition inside!!!)

It was nearly sun sets when we came out from the restaurant... We then bought some Sweet Corns to chew while continue to walk up and down... Not many handsome guys to check out, not many pretty girls neither... I think both of us were the most pretty and handsome one out there (*cough*cough*)... hahahaha...

Due to we both had to work the next day (Monday), we didn't stay there long at all... We went home around 9 or 10ish... Very tiring... The outing wasn't too bad, but it was not as relaxed especially knowing the next day is Monday and its such a long week to go before next weekend comes... sigh!!

Breaking The ICE

[ dixie chicks ] not ready to make nice

I reckon the best way to break the ice, is to be honest and invite the others to come into your world... Let them take a day tour to explore what's in your mind... and allow them to see the views from your angle... Misunderstanding would easily be avoided if we care and we dare to open up our world for everyone to come in...

Sometimes being honest and express our feelings could be a suicide attempt... but to be true to yourself and your own feelings, will do you more good eventhough things may go wrong... and it's definitely worth it... =)

It'll take some times to recover and get back to the same old level... but I'm not ready to make nice yet, not today... but the progress is good... and I love this song by Dixie Chicks!!!

Perfect Gift for Dad

[ paul anka ] put your head on my shoulder

Went YumCha with friends (TJ, Mike & Angie) at the same place I went yesterday with the gays... hmmmph... and I was 30mins LATE!! ...hee... (Seriously, I'm afraid of YumCha now, and I thought I wouldn't "Yum" more "Cha" after Florence left, but see what happened? ...Now getting sick of it, really!!)

Anyway, it was great to have finally caught up with the group... TJ is going to Europe soon, and I envy him a lot!! ...How I wish I could go traveling for 4 months without worrying about my job and my bank balance like him!!! ...Grrrr...

Later on, I met up with Bro and Winnie, and started shopping in the city to hunt for Tissot!! ...and we FOUND IT!! ...It was our lucky day too as there's 20% discount as well!! ...And now we're thinking about getting the same matching Ladies watch for mum since her birthday is in March!! ... =) ...Anyway, the most important is that DAD LIKES THE WATCH A LOT!!! =))

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Throughout the whole long weekend, I was feeling a little hollow inside... but I finally came to accept that "change is the only constant thing"... and I started to feel calm inside and accepted the reality... BUT at night, I received an EMAIL which messed up my calm and peaceful world again!! ...I was feeling frustrated cos I tried hard to get over it during the weekend and I finally felt so much better, yet an Email suddenly ROCK my thoughts again and put me back into the deep end.. I actullay had to play Piano to distress and detox... lolx... Came back with a clearer mindset and I replied the Email and expressed my thoughts and got things out of my system...
What a relief!! ...I had a really good night sleep then!! ... =)

2 Gays, 1 Girl, and the Cookies

[ lily allen ] smile

Climbed out of bed at 945am while my eyes were still not fully opened... How I wished I could sleep moreeeeeeee... but I promised the gays we'd catch up and go Yum-Cha... as it's been quite a while I haven't seen Andy since he last came to Melb...

Anyway, there was a bit of dramas but we all still managed to meet up as planned... doesn't matter what happened as long as it was a happy ending... Hehehe!! ...After Yumcha, the gays and I went to this pub called Cookies. It's another cool and cozy place in the city to hang out during day time (night time would be too crowded)... We had a few drinks while sitting at the dark secret corner, and bitching about all everything and chat away the afternoon...

I then went to High-Point to check out more watches... Didn't see Tissot Platinum model at all... So I went home to have dinner... and while online, Gary suggested to watch "The Fountain"... So I went all the way back to High-Point again to catch the movie... and both of us came out from the movie not knowing what was it all about... hmmmph!! ...Too confused, too deep, too abstract... ZzzZzzzZzZzzz....

Australia Day

[ australian ] waltzing matilda

A public holiday for all of us... And the weather was absolutely beautiful!!!
Initially I landed myself a DATE, but due to I was being too straight forward over something (I was brutal in his point of view), things turned Pear Shape!!

It was great to have spent the day with Winnie and Silvia shopping at Chadstone Shopping Mall instead... Though it was a waste to stay indoor when the weather was sooooooooooooo beautiful... but I needed to find a present for daddy... so no choice!! ...

Brother and I have decided to get a watch for daddy, but we still yet to browse around... and most of the watches I saw at Chadstone are quite nice... I had a hard time picking... not until I laid my eyes on the Tissot Titanium model... It's such a simple and classic design yet it just stood out like it was calling out my name... hehehehe... I sms my brother the model of the watch, and he went online to check it out and he likes it too!!! ...Yeay!!! ...

But due to this was the first day I shopped for Watches, I thought we should have checked out a few more shops and not rushing into buying one so soon... (it ain't cheap also ah!!)

We ended our day with dinenr at Pancake Parlours (Hight Point)... and watching BLUE CRUSH on TV... What a day!!! ...I did feel a little hollow inside due to it could have been a DATE today, on the other hand, I felt very happy as there's progress on searching dad the best gift!! =)

Daddy's 60th Lunar Birthday!

[ everybody ] happy birthday to the most wonderful dad in the world

60th is a big birthday... We should have celebrated dad's birthday with STYLE!! ...but but but but... Well, we don't have any relatives nor many family friends in Melb, and Dad prefers a simple family dinner... So we went to the best Malaysian Restaurant in Melb to have the big big feast!!

5 of us polished up 7 big yummy dishes!! ...I've never been so full since this year (haha!) as I was the last to put down my chopsticks... hehehee.... How could I resist great food like that!? ...Impossible!!! ...

Dad cut the cake at home and I was the only one who still could fit a slice in my mouth (cos they were too full?!)... Hmmm... No matter how full I was, there's always space for cakes... especially Black Forrest Cake!! ...very very yummy indeed... Even mum thinks so too (she's the most picky amongst us!)

One thing that is missing... A present for dad!!! ...
Well, we will start shopping during the long weekend... WOohooOO!!

Misunderstanding...

[ pon & zi ]

My feelings right now... just like the Emo-cartoons...

Lack of communications...
Not open up to each other "enough"....
All the misunderstanding...

Be honest to others...
Be truthful to each other...
Simplify everything in life...

Too Late...

[ 古巨基 ] 愛得太遲

Rain a little this morning... Miserable feeling...
Heart sinks deeper every seconds... Feeling hollow... a sense of losing...
It's already too late to say sorry... as things wouldn't be the same...
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Close friends drifted apart due to hardly catch up...
Never notice the wrinkles of our parents as we're too busy with our own lives...
Too busy with our career...
Too busy for our own health (when was the last time you slow down?)...
Too busy to watch the movies we collected...
Too busy to express your love for someone...
Wait till next time... Wait till we have time... Wait till tomorrow...
What if it's too late to love? ...
What if it's too late to regret? ...
What if we have missed the moment just like we missed the wrinkles of our parents?
What if there's no tomorrow? ... and what if we have missed the moment??

In Love with His Talent

[ jerry c ] marriage d'amour

I found another AWESOME! AWESOME piece which is re-arranged by Jerry C... This is one of my all time favorite piece as well, as I grew up listening to the piano version by Richard Clayderman... Anyway, I have been watching the "Canon D" and "Marriage D'Amour" by JerryC repeatly, and everytime I watch it, I get butterflies in my tummy and I could just feel the energy intensely growing inside me and felt like I wanna jam along and explode toooo...



To all my secret admires (if I even have any??)... You'd better master Piano or Guitar playing to impress me... *muahahahahhahaha*

Talented Intrument Players

[ jake shimabukuro ] while my guitar gently weeps

I have never heard this song by The Beatles before, but Jake played it so beautifully... until my heart gently weeps...



[ jerry c ] canon d

While I am still taking my time learning Johann Pachelbel's Canon D (George Winston's arrangement), and I found this guitar version which is arranged and played by an extremely talented Taiwanese student JerryC (he's such a cutie, isn't he??)... Ever since then Canon D in rock version is born!!!

Theme Party "W"

[ the beatles ] white my guitar gently weeps

It was a great party... Fabulous food, nice big tend at the backyard, the one man band plays awesome classic rock songs and he did pretty well on Hotel California... Theme party rocks!!!!!

My first time going to a theme party which I only had one week to get prepared and searched for a costume that starts with "W"... Didn't manage to come up with any CREATIVE ideas like the others... and guess what? ...WATER MELON won the best costume!!! ...hehee... (No photos yet but I believe the birthday girl will send us the photo to show us next week!)...

There's many of my kinds at the party - Witches... Most of them looks wicked and scary as if it was a Halloween Party... hehee... and me the Good Witch (as my colleagues called me) casted two good spells on my two colleagues... Hope their hearts will mend and better days will come...