Workplace Problems - HER again

[ rococo quartet ] por una cabeza

I have been in quite a lot of stressed these few days at work... and I felt that I'm stucked at the situation where a lot of "communication" is required, yet I have analysed every possible steps/ways but I still could not foresee any "win-win" case to solve the issues...

I always fix her mistakes quietly instead of pointing those mistakes or wrong doing out to let her acknowledge her own mistakes and to give her room of improvements... She is spoilt because of me... and nobody will find out about how incapable she is... I don't think it would do me any good if I told my new manager the honest truth because he would probably think I am just trying to say bad words about her to protect my own job...

YES, my manager thought of changing my job role just because he thinks that I have to battle with cancer and I may bring the team down if I were to take more days off in the future... In a way I understand his point of view, yet I do not think that arrangement works... He wanted me to train her up so that she could take over my role... and I know very well that she's incapable of taking up this role because of her laziness and poor organizational skills...

Now, if that really happens, I would think I'd be in the situation where... If I were to train her up, and if she couldn't pick things up (cos she isn't that smart really), they all may think it's ME who didn't teach her well probably because I wanted her to fail as I wasn't willing to hand her the role (especially IF I told my new manager now, that she isn't quite right for this role?)...

It's complicated... and I haven't slept well the past few days... and it sort of created a bit of "tension" between her and myself these few days...

Well, the other morning she took a correspondence away from my desk and told me she's going to follow up with that (because she is "prepared" to learn and take on my role)... I wasn't impressed because she doesn't keep things in file and keep records of what she does and if ONE DAY someone asks me about what's going on with that job, I will have no records of it and I will look terrible... IF this was her tasks to take care of these correspondence, I couldn't care less... but these are MY responsibility and she should have known she shouldn't have crossed it especially I am back to WORK now... it's not like I'm still in the hospital...

So I questioned her if she has finished her own stuffs and if she is now up to date with her filings/photocopying and etc (because she has been crying the previous day complaining to everyone that she's so stressed and overloaded with things that she has so many things to apply and to follow up)... If she already has so many things to do and follow up, how could she NOT trying to finish her own shit first? ...Is she a bit too eager and impatience or is she trying to proof something there? ...

I was quite annoyed and she was also offended by the way I questioned her... She knew she has crossed it and she just wasn't happy that for the first time I questioned her in this kinda way I guess... We haven't really spoken for 2 days... Let's hope after the weekend things would improve...

Complicated... but it certainly has given me a chance to think about the whole situations, the reality of this world, human behavior, my true feelings and thoughts, to re-evaluate and reflect my own actions and to check if I am actually being fair or naive and etc... Anyway, I am sure I'll find my way to deal with it... Life is all about learning how to deal with problems, isn't it?

Finally Met after 11yrs

[ 古巨基 ] 劲歌金曲2 - 情歌王

Sunday night I finally met up with a good friend whom I have known for 11 long years... I'm very happy to have finally met him in person after all those years... Though it was the first time we met in person, but we felt as if we have known each other for ages and it was great and we can chat non-stop if time wasn't the limit.

I was actually meant to meet up with him on Monday night after his D&D but my body was not up for it as I was still not fully recovered and I was feeling very weak and tired after my first day back to work... It's a pity...

Anyway, I managed to meet up with him for a quick dinner today after work, and sent him off to airport for him to catch his flight back to Perth... Thank goodness he managed to catch his flight on time (cos we were kinda running a little late)...

Well, hopefully we shall meet again someday soon...

Hmmm... who else I haven't met in person after all these years?
...Jason & Kenneth!

Earth Hour @ Melbourne

[ 古巨基 ] 劲歌金曲2 - 情歌王

Did you participate on EARTH HOUR?
Shame on you if you didn't!!

Pointless Action

[ 古巨基 ] 劲歌金曲2 - 情歌王

I received this email when I came back from the white cells yesterday...

I sincerely apologize for contacting you. I was genuinely concern.
I did not mean to transgress and impose on your space.
This email will be the last time I communicate with you.
I wish you health, happiness and all the best in your endeavors.

Farewell.
Yours sincerely,
XXX

Is it even necessary to write someone such an email? ...Exactly WHAT were the POINTS the sender is trying to make? ...To "apologize" yet trying to play a bit of "reverse psychology" hoping to make the reader feel little "sorry" and "guilty" cos this is the "last time" the sender will communicate with the recipient?

Here's the full story...

I was in the hospital the past few days and I received an sms from a friend who asked if I wanted to go to the Zoo. I told him I couldn't make it as I was admitted to hospital due to fever. I appreciated his concerned but he was a little "over-reacted"... Anyway, I reassured him that I'm FINE and will be out of hospital once my temperature is down... and I will sms him when I'm out of the hospital because mobile phone is NOT ALLOWED in hospital.

A day later, this friend CALLED me on my mobile while I was still in the hospital. I was extremely annoyed because I felt like he is intruding my space... Look, I do not think it is even appropriate to CALL someone when you knew they're in the hospital... The least you could do is to drop them an SMS (not to disturb them directly and give them plenty of time to rest and to reply whenever they are able to)... Most importantly, I have already made my point CLEAR to him that I could not use the phone in the hospital previously...

I didn't pick up his call of course... I replied him and told him I am doing fine and won't die any soon and I will sms everyone when I have been discharged from hospital, but until then do not CALL me as my phone is for emergency use in the hospital.

Anyway, I guess after that SMS he then sent me the above email to BOTH my email addresses (as if he was afraid that I didn't read it or missed out on it)...

Well, you could say I'm mean and cold blooded and cruel, but I get really annoyed when people don't give me enough space to breath... and I get even more annoyed when people sending me such email to apologize and wanted to give me space by making a BIG SCENE of "farewell"...

Is he a drama king or what? ... =)
I guess he has long sensed that I am trying to keep a distance from him since a few weeks ago...

Discharged from White Cell

[ 古巨基 ] 劲歌金曲2 - 情歌王

Just being discharged from the white cell at 9East, Room8 since Sunday night... Right hand is full of needle holes yet there's no finding of origin of the my on-and-off fever... 4 nights of living in the room wasn't too easy, yet it wasn't too tough as well (as there's Pay TV to entertain me, as well as magazines which family brought for me)...

It wasn't fear of death that got to me... it was actually the torment of "not knowing why" that hit me hard... I couldn't understand why my temperature going up and down like a roller coaster (which prevent me from going home to sleep on my own bed and having real food - hospital food sucks!)...

Hospital nurses are very kinda and caring, and I felt terrible to always have to push the "call" button to ask them to serve me (bring me water, bring me towel/changing clothes for shower, and etc)... It's way out of my comfort zone to request HELP from others especially with things that I was able to do it myself if I wasn't in this state... I dislike being taken care of like a weak... But I greatly appreciate the patience and the kindness of all the nurses as they are like angels to me...

My health is deteriorated due to this fever... but I hope my body will recover soon as I still have a long battle to confront... I still have a few things that I need to do before I'm willing to leave... I'll list them out so that they are not being overlooked nor missed out....

Anyway, I'm glad that I'm out of the white cell...
Sorry to have made my family and a few friends and many colleagues of mine worried these few days... I'll take great care of myself... and thanks for all your concerned... I'm getting better each day now!!

Quest for Documentaries Online

[ sarah mclachlan] adia

Few years ago I came across a Documentary by Graham Hancock on TV while I was flipping channels during commercial break... and I only managed to watch the last 30mins of that documentary but I have remembered it since... and I found this documentary online by chance few days ago - "Quest of the Lost Civilization"... Love it! ...

I also found another documentary "Atlantis Reborn" which oppose Hancock's idea about his findings... It is quite interesting to watch as well... and the mystery of the Lost Civilization still remain unsolved... =)

There's all other interesting Documentaries (ie. Engineering an Empire, Lost Civilization Maya, In Search of Ancient Mysteries, Ancient Apocalypse, Rome Arena of Death, and etc) that I have watched over the past few days and I'm still browsing for more... =) ...

Anyway, was also wondering why they are not showing "Unexplained Mysteries - The Unreal World" in Oz...

Betrayal

[ 徐佳瑩 ] 身騎白馬抒情版

Would you consider this is an action of betrayal if your partner told you there's "nothing" between him/her with a close friend/colleague and they are not even "possible" no matter what... but once both of you and your partner is seperated, he/she started to date/seeing that particular friend/colleague straight away?

When I said "nothing" and "impossible" with that particular someone... I always mean it... and I won't end up seeing/dating them no matter what... I'll keep my word...

But to the others... they might have meant what they said "at that time"... but don't be fooled as that is not a "promise" that valid til forever... cos whatever they have said to you earlier, would have been thrown out of the windows once you walked out from their lives...

Brother's Wedding

[ ronan keating ] when you say nothing at all

After 7-8yrs of being together, Bro and Winnie has finally signed the paper and declared to friends and family that they are now a married couple!

Wishing them all the best and happily ever after!

(Note: this photo was taken by Elias... ain't this a beautiful shot?)...

Tasmania Trip (1st - 7th March)

[ fergie ] clumsy

Thanks to Rabbit for organizing the whole Tasmania trip... from booking both of our airfares to car rental and making reservations for our accommodations at Hobart and Cradle Mountain and etc... She's not only good in organizing trip, but she's also the greatest travel companion (and very safe driver too!)

1st March
Arrived Hobart and checking into City View Motel... Had Seafood buffet at Cove Restaurant at Hotel Grand Chancellor... The food there wasn't too bad but I didn't quite like the idea that they didn't place any ICE underneath/around the Salmon Sashimi and Fresh Oyster to keep the fresh and cold...

2nd March
Breakfast at Maldini Restaurant at Salamanca Place and checking out the young cute bikie (and also the cute friendly waiter who looks a bit like Matthew Broderick - Thanks to Rabbit for reminding me!)... hehe... It's a pity that we missed out on the Saturday Salamanca Market... Oh well, there's always next time, I guess?! ...We walked and shopped around in Hobart City before heading to Barilla Bay Restaurant for our seafood lunch!! Again, I didn't know there's a Farm Tours & Tasting at Barilla Bay or else I definitely won't missed it... Anyway, the Oyster and food at Barilla Bay is absolutely beauuuuuutiful...

We then headed to Richmond and start to take lotsa photos... And we also stopped by at Eaglehawk Neck to check out the Tessellated Pavement, Tasman Arch, Devil's Kitchen and the Blowhole before we headed to Port Arthur for our Ghost Tour at night!

I didn't do enough homework before I came to Tasmania, and I absolutely didn't know Port Arthur historical site is soooo big and it's absolutely worth visiting during the day... We arrived in the evening to join The Ghost Tour only, which was quite alright (thank goodness we didn't see anything scary stuff)... Rabbit is funny cos she deleted or refused to take any photos to avoid capturing any scary/unexpected stuff... lolx...

By the time we finished the Ghost Tour at Port Arthur and drove back to Hobart, it was nearly midnight and I think I had trouble sleeping that night... I kept hearing THINGS!!!!!

3rd March
Rabbit went to Cadbury Factory by herself in the morning while I was still dreaming in bed as I'm not a chocolate lover... hehe... After her visit to Cadbury Factory, we then checked-out from the City View Motel and headed to Cradle Mountain by pass Hamilton where there's this Glen Clyde House that offers the most yummy Cheese Chicken Scone... it was so yummy we even take-away two scones! ...

Lake St Clair National Park was the next stop and everyone over there carrying big backpacks (I think they all go there to camp and trek for days!)... We only stopped by for a short while before headed to Queenstown under the rain... The winding road near Queenstown was unforgettable as it was raining and I could see how high we were as I was driving uphill and downhill (there's no trees on road side at all cos it's a mining area)...

Anyway, I think we might have stopped at Rosebery or Tullah before reaching Cradle Mountain.... Ahhh.... Cradle Mountain Lodge is such a beautiful, warm and cozy place to stay... I still could smell the wood fire as I recall it now as I'm typing this... ahhhhhh =))

We had dinner at the Tavern Bar & Bistro at Cradle Mountain Lodge... It was quite crowded there and I think we headed back to our lodge and soaked in our own spa for a while before we called it a night...

4th March
Complimentary Buffet Breakfast at Highland Restaurant... OMG!!! ...I ate sooooo much because the breaky was sooooooooo yummy... The smoked salmon, the different types of Danish, mushrooms and scramble egg, the super beautiful porridge... and it's ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFET BREAKY!!! ...I think we went for so many rounds we were so full at the end and didn't even feel hungry during lunch!

Ohhh... All I could think of now is the Fabulous Breakfast and I don't remember what did we do on the 4th March... lolx... I think we went for Enchanted Stroll, and then booked our Spa for next day, and checking out Tasmania Devils at the conservation park near the Lodge... and had a cuppa at the Cradle Mountain Cafe where we checked out the Helicopter ride (4 pax $190 each - 2 pax $330 each)... Too expensive to even take it... =((

We then went back to our Lodge and took the Kings Billy Track... It was kinda exhausted for me cos we had to walk uphill but when we reached to the top, the view was beautiful and we could see Cradle Mountain from there... After that, I think we went to The Waldheim Alpine Spa where we met the BITCH who see us as her enemies just because her boyfriend smiled at us politely when he entered the spa... Anyway, we went for Tavern for dinner again before we went back to our lodge to rest before joining for Native Animal Night Viewing Tour... We saw lotsa cute wombats, possums and pademelon and also two Tasmania Devils in the wild!!! ...Lucky hey?!

5th March
Again, the highlight in the morning was the complimentary buffet Breakfast... hehehe... We ate so much and so full again before checking out The Waterfalls Walk (Pencil Pine Falls and Knyvet Falls) to burn some energy since we had been eating so much! ...It didn't take us too long to finish the walk and went back to our lodge to wait till 130pm for our Canoe Tour at Dove Lake...

As I was taking a short nap, the Canoe Tour guide came to knock on our door and delivered the bad news... Canoe Tour has been cancelled due blizzard wind at Dove Lake... So we decided to join the Quad Bike Tour at 230pm!! ...

It's my first time on manual Quad Bike! ...So much fun driving my own!!! ...I was a bit worried because it's a bit different to riding a motorbike (and I haven't ridden a motorbike for more than 10yrs and I think I have only rode it not more than 3 times!??)... but it didn't take me too long to master the Quad Bike... I didn't ride as quick as the guys but hey, safety is more important ok!! ...hehe

After the Quad Bike tour, we then headed back to our lodge... Rabbit decided to do some laundry and took a relaxing Spa in our lodge, while I headed to the Tourist Center to catch the shutter bus at 520pm to Cradle Mountain National Park to check out Dove Lake by myself!

First arrived Dove Lake and it was beauuuuutiful... The lake was so peaceful and calm and Cradle Mountain was just right behind... I walked around the track (eventhough there's signs saying I should not walk by myself?)... Yeah, imagine if the Tasmanian Tiger appear infront of me and attack me yeah?! ...But it would be worth it if I get to see it (which thought to have became extinct now). Anyway, I missed the 630pm shutter bus to leave the National Park and had to sit there for 45mins for the next one... I didn't have a watch nor my mobile phone with me and I thought I have missed the last bus!! ...A bit PANIC at first until I found out I haven't missed the last shutter bus at 730pm... *phew*!!! ...

I think I got back to the Lodge nearly 8pm and quickly get changed to have dinner at Highland Restaurant for our 2 course meals! ...I had beef and Rabbit had salmon fish again... I think the whole trip she ate Salmon nearly everyday!!

6th March
I don't think we would ever get sick of the Buffet Breakfast at all... Ate so much again before checking out from Cradle Mountain to go to Tasmazia Maze near Sheffield... then headed to Sheffield the murals town... We met the very very cute and adorable Pablo... Isn't he a cutie?? ...Pablo's owner insisted that I have "Indian" blood in me and he described me a "handsome" lady... Hmmmm!!!!?? ...

Anyway, we reached Launceston in the evening and found a cheap hotel (can't remember which one!) and the room stink (people who stayed in the room previously probably smoked in the room?)... Oh well, it was just one night so we didn't bother to request for changing room...

Went for a drive at Tamar Valley and came back to Launceston... and it was a Thursday and there's no late night shopping... We went to catch the movie "10,000BC" instead... It was good enough to kill some time... but I still think Apocalypto is much better... =P

I guess I didn't enjoy my stay in Launceston as much as I expected... because I really really missed Cradle Mountain a lot... It was a great place to relax and stay away from city life and in touch with beautiful wilderness...

7th March
Woke up and strolled around the city of Launceston... Found the Coco Bean and tried their Tea Chocolate (cos a friend told me I must try it?)... but it failed to excite me... Perhaps we went to the wrong Chocolate shop hey??! ...

Had simple lunch at a food court and headed to Launceston Airport to catch the flight back to Melb....

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaap! ...Our trip ended just like that....
I still miss Cradle Mountain very much... I can still picture the yummy breakfast and the wilderness and peacefulness at Cradle Mountain Lodge and walkabout...

Perhaps next trip shall visit Cradle Mountain during Winter time!? ...Would be cool staying at the beautiful cozy lodge overlooking the snowy mountain.... The view must be very very beautiful.... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I want more holidaysssssssssss....

Anyway, for more photos... check here

Shopping with Mum

[ 齊秦 ] 袖手旁觀

Initially I planned to shop for my dress for my bro's wedding... but I ended up shopping with mum at Malvern... Anyway, it was quite a driving distance from my place to Malvern, but having mum filling me in with all the news regarding my relatives in Msia, made the journey a little interesting...

Malvern has lotsa boutiques that's a little different... Mostly a bit mature for me, but mum was quite happy to find those shops which are different to the shops in Shopping Centres (High-Point or Chadstone).

Anyway, I bought a nice charcoal colour knee length pants which can be worn for office or leisure... I nearly bought the red bag too from the same shop, but I thought I shall look for my dress instead of buying more accessories... hehe...

Well, I think I spent quality time with mum today and found out lotsa details regarding my relatives in msia... Sometimes I would wonder why there's conflicts between the siblings when it comes to inherit the land/$$$... Well, I wouldn't mind if my parents give all their $$$ to my brother at all... I guess if you love your siblings enough, you wouldn't even be that calculative, yeah?? ...Hmm... but I'm sure every family has their own stories behind closed doors that I know not of...

Valentine's Day

[ verve ] drugs don't work

Did you have a great Valentine's Day? ...
I didn't even feel it at all... but I did have an unusual Valentine's Day...

Drugs don't work... as more lesions found...
They said I'm still young and they'll absolutely help me find a drugs that works... I was devastated by the news as I thought there'd be good news... But not...

Didn't get any Valentine's flowers this year... My dearest gay friend has gone back to Msia for holidays... Normally he would give me flowers which he arranged during Valentine's... He is such a talented person as he could transform anything into beautiful things (flowers, paintings, drawings, and food!)...

Anyway, I have cancelled my plans for May as I thought I would be able to have a short holidays in Msia and HK/China... Oh well, until I have found the suitable drugs... I don't think I'd go anywhere...

Suzuki Night Market @ Queen Victoria Market

[ misia ] any love

I didn't think my Wednesday would be any different to the other Wednesday, but today was a little unusual... as it was a last minute decision to visit Suzuki Night Market at Queen Victoria Market.

Every year, I would make an effort to visit this Wednesday night market because I just love it there. There's so many arty stuff and a lot of home made and unique designs available... There's also hawker food stalls around as well as live performances for free... I guess it is also quite special as it is the ONLY night market in Melbourne and they only have it during Summer...

Anyway, I bought an Relaxation Pillow for eyes (filled with Lavender, Chamomile, rose and Millet filling) as well as a Moon Bag for neck&shoulder (filled with Lavender, Ginger, Sandlewood and wheat filling) which can be heated up in the Microwave for 2 mins, and it's good for aches, pains and tense muscles... They cost me Aud$40... hmmm... A little expensive but I really like it...

Also, I bought a Neckerchief from a stall called "The Girl Can't Help It" for my colleague as it was her birthday... The neckerchief is soooooooooooooooo pretty I really wanted one for myself too... but they don't have the one which I wanted (cos they no longer has the antique fabric or buckle for that particular patterns)... What a pity!!! ...But I still think they are really really pretty.... Love it!

I guess I'm into scarf and all these sort nowadays cos not only I could use them as hair bands, they also looks pretty when wrapping around the neck... I guess I feel more comfy with them than wearing necklace, eventhough I do like necklace too (edgy and unique ones only!) but rarely had the chance to wear them...

Anyway, my next stop next time would be:-
(1) Lost and Found market
(2) Rose Street Market

Chinese New Year in Melb

[ 恭喜恭喜 ]

I remember last year I went to almost every Chinese New Year celebrations in Melb (ie. Box Hill, Springvale, Richmond, Crown, Chinatown, except Footscray). This year I only went to Chinatown and Crown just to feel the atmosphere...

Anyway, Chinatown (Little Burke Street) was soooooo crowded I felt as if I was still walking at the same spot... Thankfully the weather wasn't that hot at all... Anyway, there were one dragon waiting in the middle of the road for the right time to perform... and at least 5 lion dances along Swanston Walk and Little Burke Street...

We had to get out of Chinatown because it was too crowded and we went the long way to Russell Street just to check out the stalls to see what they were offering this year... As usual, all those hawker stalls and bright red decorations for Chinese New Year... We bought a slice of yummy 肉干 (sorry, I don't really know what's the English name for this!) and slowly walked to Crown Casino as there's more along Yarra River...

Personally I prefer the Chinese New Year Celebration at Crown along the riverside... probably because it's more spacious and it's a nicer view along the river? ...Bought so many food to eat (Curry Fish Balls, "Apong Balik"), 豆腐花, and Green Tea Drinks)... If I hadn't have lunch earlier, I think I would have bought more food (ie. 猪肠粉, Satay, and PoPiah) ...Hmm... Actually the food there wasn't that great, it's just the atmosphere makes you wanna buy and eat (especially I miss those food as well).... =))

Anyway, such a tiring day... but that's my Chinese New Year during the weekend...
We already had our family dinner on Wed and Thursday night (Chinese New Year Eve and 1st day of Chinese New Year)...

Well, I hope you all have a Wonderful Chinese New Year 2008!!

2nd Saturday

[ one republic ] stop & stare

I have spent a few hours on Thur night to design a Birthday invitation card for my colleague as she's holding a 40th birthday celebration coming March... Love doing all these little project for people around me... (No, I didn't get to design my brother's wedding invitation... grrrr!!)

Saturday morning I received an sms "Movie today?" from him... Pissed me off again due to that sms for some reason... Look, if that sms was little longer and little nicer / polite, perhaps I would think about it... Even when I ask friends out, I would ask nicely with a longer sms to invite them to catch up or NOT to give them a sense of "just-want-to-kill-time-cos-Im-so-bored" kinda-thing! ...Well, Let's not talk about this cos I could blah-blah-blah the whole day...

Anyway, my weekend was quite nice... Though I didn't get to watch "Sweeney Todd" but we bought a new cordless phone with answering machine (to keep away those annoying telemarketing calls)... hehehe... We went shopping at High-Point because we need to find nice outfit for Bro's wedding!

I saw a pretty summer dress which is nice enough for the wedding, but I still need to shop a little bit more before I lock it in... =) ... Let's hope the pretty dress would still be available if I couldn't find any nice dress by mid Feb!! ....

Long Weekend

[ 楊宗緯 ] 洋蔥

I hope you have a great long weekend... cos mine was very boring... =/
Two long lost friends sms me this weekend as if they knew I'm free this weekend? ... but I have been VERY anti-social mood lately and I choose not to go out... and I spent my long weekend watching "3rd Rock from The Sun"...

I shall go for Summer Zoo Twilight next week and watch Sweedney Todds too as Rabbit highly recommended it!! ...(Oh come on! ...It will be good as it's Johnny Depp!!!)...

Half & Half

[ 蕭煌奇 ] 一半一半

I was just browsing around and came across this song...
The lyric is beautiful...

白天一半　晚上一半　善良一半　邪惡一半
男人一半　女人一半　真的一半　假的一半
白天一半　晚上一半　善良一半　邪惡一半
男人一半　女人一半　真的一半　假的一半

佛的世界一半　魔的世界也一半
你一半　我一半
這個世間　誰也無法統一另一半

努力好的一半　壞的一半自然減少
接受美好的一半　包容短缺的一半
努力好的一半　壞的一半自然減少
接受美好的一半　包容短缺的一半
才能擁有全面的人生

1st Saturday...

[ 盧巧音 & 王力宏 ] 好心分手

My 1st very own Saturday... on Australia Day...

I spent the day with a good friend whom I last seen since last November... to catch up, to bitch about the ups and downs in our lives (he blah-blah-blah more than I did!!), to eat and drink like people who hasn't eaten for ages, and to comfort each other! Though it was just a few hours in the afternoon, but it was still one great step to keep myself occupied...

Bro's family is home for dinner and I was busy playing with Russell (the doggy) with the tennis ball... I was meant to throw the tennis ball very hard on the floor so that it would bounce back in the air, and Russell could jump and catch it.... and I accidentally hit Russell's eyes with the tennis ball!!! ...I knew it was very painful because I hit it hard... Poor Russell was in pain and I felt terrible!!!! ...Thankfully after a few minutes of short rest, he was active and running about again.... *phew*... but I still feel terrible for hitting him... Poor Russell, I buy you pig's ears next time... =)

At the moment, I'm kinda at my anti-social mood... I wish not to meet anyone nor talk to anyone about anything... It's still very uncomfortable (with mixed feelings)... but I promise I'll come out and play when I have enough rest... Looking forward to March for my Tassie trip with Rabbit and my brother's wedding...

I'll spend some time working on my next project... I'll have more time now...

看清

[ 輕鬆玩樂團 ] 看清

He is not that into you... if he always walk ahead and leave you behind...
He is not that into you... if he doesn't reply your sms soon enough...
He is not that into you... if he doesn't share or include you in his life...
He is not that into you... if he is not willing to hold your hand in public...
He is not that into you... if he doesn't let anybody knows he is seeing you...
He is not that into you... if he says he is not ready for a relationship...

He is not that into you...
...if he doesn't even try to stop you from leaving him...

He is just not that into you...

No Need to Argue

[ dolores o'riordan ] loser

I used to question when I didn't understand why...
I used to confront when I knew something didn't add up...
I used to probe for an answer when I knew I won't get one...

I don't question now... I don't confront now...
And I certainly do not probe anymore...
Because if I did...
...the answers would still be unacceptable...
...more lies will be made to cover the trail...
...& communication won't work when one started to get defensive...

Funeral

[ the pretenders ] i'll stand by you

4 of us took 2hrs off to attend her mom's funeral today...
It was well presented and well organized... and the service was full of people... It was difficult for the family and it's not easy for us too to see the family grieve like that...

After the service, I went to say good-bye to her, and tears just started to build up & overflow... I think we kissed each other's lips instead of cheeks (unsure if it was accidental or not?)