Counting Stars

Whenever I suddenly thought of a friend, I'd hear from them a few days later... This happened so often that I started to get used to it...

Few weeks ago, I kept thinking about this friend of mine. As usual, I thought I'd heard from him soon, but I didn't... And it never occured to me to call him neither... (Sometimes I do question myself whether my special gift was purely a beautiful coincident that happens to me all the times)...

Anyway, something reminds me of this friend again last night right before I switched off the light to go to sleep... It's like a SIGN that's been calling for me... and so I decided to give him a buzz while I slipped myself into my nice warm bed.

He seemed tired but I thought maybe I caught him during his bed time? Just as we were having a few casual jokes and small talk, he dropped the bad news... and I was left speechless... I felt terrible enough not knowing what to say to comfort him at that very moment... and I felt guilty for ignoring the little voice and all the SIGNS appeared for me these few weeks... I also felt bad for not able to give him a hug as I feel his pain and sorrow deep down eventhough he tried to be strong... and I felt worst when I know I haven't been doing a great job to stay in touch with my dear friend more often and be there for him when he needed someone...

Counting stars at night... as I didn't sleep very well... =(