My Guardian Angel

Do you believe in Guardian Angels? ...

I am not a religious person, but I think I believe in Guardian Angels... My Guardian Angels is a very handsome angel who protects me and take care of me all the times! ...(Well, I wanted to believe that my handsome Guardian Angels is falling in love with me deeply, so that explains why I'm still SINGLE, and I'm still alive after so many near death experiences!!)... hehehe

Today, I experienced not one, but TWO near-collisions while driving home alone. My eye lids were extremely heavy and I was so sleepy that I believe my body switched into auto-pilot driving... I had no idea how I managed to drive all the way home, I just don't remember...

All I remember was driving at Pascoe Vale Rd with opposite traffics coming on my right side... My eye lids were so heavy that blinking eyes became extremely challenging (very hard to open the eyes)... Anyway, at this part of the road, I was so sleepy that I gave in to struggle opening my eyes... and I felt asleep with my eyes closed for a split seconds... That split second felt like ages as I was probably in the deep sleep stage?? ...and all of a sudden for no reason, I just remember to wake up and open my eyes!! ...I nearly pee my pants seeing myself driving in the opposite traffic lane where there's opposite traffic coming my way!! ...I did a very sharp turn just to get back into my own lane and started to shiver... Well, you think that would make me awake yeah?? ...I thought so too at that time... but not at all... =/

I thought it wasn't too far off from home and I started to feel a little relaxed and continue to drive... Sleepy bugs started to bite me hard again... I fell asleep for another split seconds... and without any reason, I just managed to wake up again before I drove my car into somebody's front yard... That was really really really close too!!! ...

Anyway, I don't know how I managed to wake up at those critical moments that may have changed my life in that split second... Well, some people believe that we have 3rd eyes... some says its just pure coincidence... Maybe?!?... but I prefer to believe that I have a beautiful Guardian Angels who guides me, protect me and taking a good care of me always!! ... =) ...

(P/S: What's the difference between Guiding Angels and Guardian Angels? Are they the same??)

Botanica Garden

I guess it's probably the fact that tomorrow is your last day... or for some reason, you started to initiate more... Perhaps we'd only treasure more when we know there's not much time left? ...(*ahem*... that's just what I think!)...

The weather was great... Autumn chill with clear blue sky... Botanica Garden is forever so beautiful... The elegant black swans waltz on the lake... The chatty ducks were trying to talk to us... The eels playfully came to the surface of the lake trying to listen to our conversations...

Melb is so beautiful isn't it? ...I'm sure you see Melb much more beautiful than I do now, because you're leaving Melb soon...

New Gadget - W810i

Oh yeah!! ...Guess what??! ...I finally have a new phone!!!

I can receive MMS now... and I can also take photos, video and play mp3s!!! ...How cool is that? ...I have finally caught up with the new technology!!! No more living in the stone age!!! ...*muahahaha*... (Who said I am old, huh!??! ...)

By the way, I'm yet to try out the BLUETOOTH to see if I could pick up any handsome guys on the street... *muahahahh*...

Robot Sushi Bar

Public Holidays (ANZ Day) tomorrow and we decided to have Japanese food for dinner and hopped into Robot Sushi Bar at Flinder's Lane for a drink after work.

This is my first time to Robot Sushi Bar and I find it quite alright. It has a bit of funky feeling especially with all those Japanese Anime and Techno-Culture kinda decorations. Tiny space with loungey seating at 2nd level... Almost everyone drink Asahi and Sake except me (probably because this is a Japanese bar??) ...As usual, I'm trying to be different... hohohoho...

Anyway, there's a lot of night spots and hidden bars in Melbourne city's alley... I've been to a few really really cool ones, but I have forgotten where about were they... See what alcohol could do to me? ...I bet if I had a drink or two today, you wouldn't be reading this blog now cos I probably have forgotten which bar I went to and my password to blogger... muahahahaha...

Paintings & Books

Went to Affordable Art Show today by myself... There's so many great paintings and I am so surprised to see M.C. Escher's original pieces which exhibited by Walker fine Art (USA) this year. I was absolutely over the moon because Escher has always been my favourite artist!! ...I admire his works cos they are absolutely brilliant!! ...

It took me a few good hours to finish browsing everything in the Art Show... And how I wished I have a lot of money to buy those beautiful pieces that I really love... Some people love cool cars, some female loves diamonds and fashion, and I'm a sucker for beautiful paintings... I've also decided to do more paintings and drawings again... I'll make time because I have so many ideas now!! ...(This is the reason why it's good to visit Art Gallery to recharge ourselves sometimes!)

Oh yeah, I went to book shop after that and bought 4 books to read:-
1. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
2. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the night - Mark Haddon
3. Family Matters - Rohinton Mistry
4. Whatever You Think Think The Opposite - Paul Arden

I also bought a few very colourful Yarns to start knitting my own scarf for this cold cold winter!!

Sometimes, life's meaning and purpose will only be revealed to us when we are alone... and we'd only start to think about things after loneliness creeps in... I found my way again and the loneliness feeling I felt last night has long gone... and I like the saying, "the strongest tress are those that grow alone"... =)

Loneliness Creeping In...

Listening to my songs while working today (yeah, worked O/T again!)... Was feeling a little dehydrate and tired probably didn't drink enough fluid after playing badminton last night... I'm not sure whether if they have any contribution to feeling a little depressed and lonely...

I know I have always approach life positively and I see the positive side of every negative things all the times... And I quite enjoy being alone without feeling loneliness at all... but I'm still not a superwoman... cos when loneliness creeps in, there's nothing I could do to stop them... Like today, I don't know why it feels like end of the world to me... (Blame it on the songs I played, and the dehydration and tireness!!) ...*sigh*...

My Age

I know in my previous blog I said I won't go to Monash Clayton campus to play badminton anymore... Err... I lied... haha... I went to play today straight after work with my colleague and I actually enjoyed playing there tonight, probably because there's not as many people comparing to last time. Also, I get to meet a few friendly and "interesting" people... hehehe...

Anyway, we went for supper after badminton around 10pm... Soon after we ordered our food, the OH-SO-DAMN-CUTE-Sri Lankan-Malaysian guy (VJ) looked at me (my heart almost stopped beating whenever his eyes caught mine!!) and asked if I'm working or studying... He has such beautiful eyes and smile... Although it wasn't a "love at first sight" for me, but it's almost there... HAHAHA... Anyway, through his eyes, I could "read" him... I knew he's just my typa guy!! ...(Can't stop smiling while I'm typing this now... Felt like I'm teenager again?!)...HAHHAHAHHHA!!! ...

Well, after VJ found out that I'm currently working (and not a student), he then asked if this is my first job with this funny kinda smile on his face... I read the intention behind his question and smiled back at him... and asked him why does he need to beat around the bush instead of asking me straight away how old I am? ... *muahahaha*... the whole table just burst out laughing cos that's exactly what he/they have been trying to figure out the whole night -- MY AGE... (Anyway, that's when DJ stopped talking to me the whole night, and yes I just killed my chance for being so rude the whole nite and didn't behave like a lady!! ... =(

Oh well, so why issit so important to find out someone is older or younger? ...Is that really THAT important to these bunch of 26-27yrs old guys?? ...but I thought age is nothing but a number? ...I thought there are things that's far more important than just the year of someone's birth? ...Why would younger men feel intimidated by female who is older than them? ...Errr... Also... why am I so reluctant to tell them my age too? ...hmmmm... (Perhaps it's because I like VJ.... muahahahahhahahhaa...)

(Note: I don't think I'd see the guys anymore cos I didn't give them my numbers when they asked, and I don't see myself going back to play badminton anymore... I have my own good reasons... *sigh*)

Brainless Burglar

Unbelievable!!! ...My car is broken into, and the stupid burglar screwed up the driver side's keyhole... So now I can't unlock/lock the car using the key anymore... To lock the door, I have to unlock the back passenger door and close the driver's door, then open the back passenger door to lock both doors from the back!!! (No... My old bomb's driver's door had to be locked from the outside using the key, probably just to prevent people leaving the key inside before they lock the door? ...and NO!!! ... it doesn't have *beep*beep* automatic car locking features like the new cars... C'mon!!! Why do you think I called it "OLD BOMB"?? ...DOH!!)

You think locking the door is troublesome enough!?!?! ...Wait till I tell you how do I get into my car when all the car doors were locked!! ...As I said before that the keyholes at the driver's door is screwed... So, I have no choice but to get in from the passenger side, and then PRETEND to read Melway (road directory) or tidy up the CD/Cassette compartment while still sitting at the passenger seat... and THEN clumsily move to the driver seat from the passenger seat (when least noticed by any by passer or whoever around the area!!!) ...How embarrassing hey!? ...Grrrr... Stupid Burglar...

Well, of all the beautiful new cars around on the street, I don't understand why the stupid burglar picked my old bomb to break into, and took my coins compartment away (yeah, the whole thing!!) which probably had just $2 coins in total... HAH!!! ...What do they expect?? ...Such an Old Bomb has lotsa $$$ and have high end SOUND SYSTEM or such for them to steal? ...YEAH RIGHT!!! ...

Anyway, they are not only brainless, they are heartless too... I mean C'mon... seeing such an old bomb, they should be able to imagine the owner is not a very wealthy person... Why still choose to break into the car and steal that little amount of coins and screwed the keyhole? ... #@#@$!!!! ...

Nowadays I think I won't go out unless I have a friend coming with me... Why? ...So that I could pass them the car key and let them get in from the other side first (passenger side), then unlock the driver's door for me from the inside, so that I could get in.... save me time to climb over to the driver seat from passenger side when I'm going out alone!!! ....*sigh*!!! ...

Tuesday Blues...

Woke up slightly late...
Reached office 20mins late...
Office's light is too bright and it sting my eyes...
Too much work... Too much work... and too much work...

I want my 1hr lunch time back, so that I could walk around the Botanica Garden again!! ...The ducks, the birds and the black swans missed talking to me! ...grrr...

Day Trip to Healesville & Eildon

The highlights of our day trip... The Hedgend Maze, The Eildon Dam/Eildon Lake, Mr. Ong, and the mystery of WHO stepped on the poo!! ...(Unfortunately, I only took some photos using my manual Pentax and I still haven't finished the roll of film yet... so no photos to show for now)...

We started off the day with getting ourself lost on the way to Box Hill... First, we turned into the wrong exit from Eastern Freeway, and after the big brunch at Box Hill, we couldn't find the right way back to the Freeway... hmm... I guess we were too busy bitching about everything to each other untill we lost our sense of directions... hahaha...

Anyway, we went straight into Hedgend Maze once we arrived Healesville... It was fun getting ourself lost in the Maze for the first 10mins, but we started to get a little frustrated and impatience as we couldn't find our way out... I think everybody shouted out here and there just to help each other out and it was pretty funny... and it took us nearly 30mins to get out from the maze... Some people actually get back into the maze soon after they came out, but we coulnd't be bothered going back in again... We had enough of getting lost for the day!

Just as we jumped into my car and about to head to Eildon... Something stinks so badly that we had to pull over the car to check WHO stepped on poos! ...Well, there were some soil stucked at the bottom of our shoes and the only way to find out was to smell and find out who actually stepped on it? ...It was hillarious, as none of us admitted we stepped on poos after smelling our own shoes, and so we had to smell each other's shoes to confirm... *lol*... The verdict was NONE of us had it!! ...Strange hey?? ...It was even more strange that stingky smell kept coming back on and off throughout the whole trip and it's still a mystery... (Our explaination was that the smell was probably so bad that it registered and screwed up our brain until we started to imagine the smell?!) ...A mystery that will never be solved...

Anyway, we reached Eildon around 3pm and we drove up to check out the wall of the dam... It was pretty scary looking down the wall (probably because I am severely afraid of heights?)... The scenery was so beautiful when looking far as Autumn leaves makes the area full of warm red and orange colours with some green in contrast... Didn't really have time to fish nor row a boat... Maybe we'll come back to stay overnight and explore the area as Eildon Lake is too big for a day trip...

Well, well... on our way back, we missed a turn as we were too busy bitching/gossiping about stuff (AGAIN!!!)... and then we saw a big truck caught on fire on the road side... All the hay on the road side was burning badly, and the smoke made the road visibility very low... (Melb radio station reported the incident too as we were still there, and I took a photo of it but not sure if it would turn out good)... Anyway, there was a little traffic jam on our way back to Melb, as I believe everyone was trying to get back to Melb after the long Easter break...

Anyway, reached home around 930pm and feeling tired, but I'm happy that we managed to do a day trip without wasting the Easter break... How I wished I don't have to go back to work tomorrow!! ... =/

V for...

No, I'm not talking about "V for Vendetta"... I'm referring to another show... Hmm... Anybody remember the TV mini series "V" in the 80s? ...I remember my brother and I loved to watch that show but we always made sure mum watched with us as well because we were afraid to watch it by ourselves... haha.... Anyway, I just found out that "V: The Second Generation" is due to release in 2007 and they are in production now... How cool is that? ...Looking forward to it! ...hohohoo...

Was meant to go out with a friend today but it was rather late when we were ready to meet up... Further more, the weather was kinda cold and windy, and it looked as if it was going to rain... So we postponed our day trip till tomorrow instead... And guess what?! ...Roughly an hour later, the cloud broke up and it was so damn sunny the rest of the day... grrrr...

Oh well, I was hoping to go for a drive today instead of tomorrow because I could use tomorrow to get some rest before getting back to work on Tuesday (as our Easter break finally come to an end!)... hmmmm... Oh well... Maybe we ate too much MEAT during Easter break and this is the punishment?? ...hohohoho

Counting Stars

Whenever I suddenly thought of a friend, I'd hear from them a few days later... This happened so often that I started to get used to it...

Few weeks ago, I kept thinking about this friend of mine. As usual, I thought I'd heard from him soon, but I didn't... And it never occured to me to call him neither... (Sometimes I do question myself whether my special gift was purely a beautiful coincident that happens to me all the times)...

Anyway, something reminds me of this friend again last night right before I switched off the light to go to sleep... It's like a SIGN that's been calling for me... and so I decided to give him a buzz while I slipped myself into my nice warm bed.

He seemed tired but I thought maybe I caught him during his bed time? Just as we were having a few casual jokes and small talk, he dropped the bad news... and I was left speechless... I felt terrible enough not knowing what to say to comfort him at that very moment... and I felt guilty for ignoring the little voice and all the SIGNS appeared for me these few weeks... I also felt bad for not able to give him a hug as I feel his pain and sorrow deep down eventhough he tried to be strong... and I felt worst when I know I haven't been doing a great job to stay in touch with my dear friend more often and be there for him when he needed someone...

Counting stars at night... as I didn't sleep very well... =(

Good Friday...

We were having BBQ & Karaoke at my colleague's place today... The weather was beautiful when we were still setting up the BBQ in their backyard... but once we started to bring out all the marinated chicken wings and beef... the weather started to change! ...Hmmm... I think the higher above wasn't that happy about we're eating meat on Good Friday?? ...Anyway, we still had fun doing the BBQ in the garage...

Karaoke started after dinner and everyone shy away from the microphones... I think everyone started to have more confidence to sing after one or two person sang terribly (it was pretty funny at the begining cos no one was singing that seriously?)... Well, don't you think that helps? ...especially knowing you won't be the worst singer in the group, and you started to think that you can actually sing better than someone else... (at least that's where my confidence comes from anyway... hahaha)... Oh well, as usual, we ended up fighting for mic to sing at the end when everybody's confidence at the highest! ...but the night was forced to end when the clock pointed at 12am... (and yup, we are all Cinderella's relatives... and when will I get to meet my prince charming?? ...hehe)

Anyway, I had a great night with my colleagues and I came home with a smile... but I went to sleep with tears as I felt so awful and so guilty after talking to my dearest friend on the phone... I still find it difficult to put it in words... =(

Flowers...

All flowers in time bend towards the sun...

Old School's

Pulled out some old school CDs (songs) and brought into office to listen to... Wow!! They brought back lotsa MEMORIES... and I got all excited whenever I heard a song which I didn't even remember I have them! ...There were moments I wanted to share those songs with someone (in the office), but second thought, better not... 'cos then, they might be able to guess my true age!! ...*muahahaha*

Atlantic Starr - Masterpiece
Dan Hill & Vonda Sheppard - Can't We Try
MC Hammer - Have You Seen Her
Martika - Toy Soldiers
PM Dawn - Set Adrift on Memory Bliss
Seduction - Two To Make It Right
Shanice - I Love Your Smile
Surface - The First Time
Sweet Sensation - If Wishes Come True
Tears for Fears - Sowing The Seeds of Love
Timmy T - One More Try
Tommy Page - A Shoulder To Cry On

So? ...Gold or not? ...*lol*

Ripples in My Small Small World...

Where did you come from...
How long have you been here...
Are you here to stay...

Why is there...
Ripples in my small small world...

Monday Blues...

What a loooooong day at work... I think I walked like a DUCK today... cos my body muscle aches like hell from the badminton game yesterday...

Anyway, there were so many works to do today and I couldn't be bothered talking to anyone at all... Super anti-social... as I put on my headphones and listening to all my songs in my very own world... so into it that I’d become non-existence in my surrounding, neither affecting it, nor being affected by it... Just keep doing my own work and listening to every single word of all the ultimate emotional Mandarin songs... and those songs made me feel a little sentimental the whole day... haven't been feeling this way for such a while... =/

First Timer

Woke up this morning thinking that it was probably 10am already... Suddenly felt so happy that I had extra 2hrs as it was in fact 8am... hehe... *^_^*

Anyway, TJ, Kelvin and I went to Monash Uni (Clayton Campus) to play badminton cos one of my colleague Vincent plays there often and he invites us to go... Well, 3 of us were first timer and we thought that we'd get our own court to play and we could play as long as we like... but it turns out that we actually have to share courts with the others, and once we finished the game, we have to get out of the court, and let the other groups play... and we'd have sit at the side to queue or more like "Aiming" and "Fighting" for the other courts when we see some players finished playing... there's 8 courts there in total... Kinda weird... I don't think I would go back and play anymore, cos it's rather far from my place, and I'd prefer to play badminton as long as I want on the court I hire instead of having other strangers waiting around our court trying to intimidate us to hurry finish the game so that they could play... grrrr...

Sore legs and back now... I think I didn't do any warm up before playing badminton... hmmmph... I missed playing Squash now... I'm trying to get Kelvin to commit playing Squash with me more often... I wouldn't mind playing badminton if we could find two more people to play double with... as playing double is actually much more fun... I think we'll stick to playing Squash for the moment then... and I don't think we'd play any soon too cos Kelvin is busy sorting out his relationship problems... Hmmmph... everyone around me seems to have some relationship problems... And I felt so good being single! ...hohoohoo

Full On Weekend!

Went back to work at 10am - 3pm on Saturday... At first I was very reluctant to work on Saturday eventhough the rate is attractive... but seeing it's Easter break next week, and I'm going to take half day off on coming Wednesday for my appointment, it's not such a bad idea to work on Saturday just to keep everything up to date for my short week next week...

Met up with a TJ whom I haven't seen for roughly 6months... Went to Rathdown Street for dinner... I can't remember what's the restaurant's name but it is quite a nice place to dine... Oh! They have a small fireplace too and we sat next to it! ...We talked about lots of things... Gossip about lotsa stuff... Such a great night catching up with an old friend! ...We'll meet up to play badminton tomorrow!! ...Yeay!!

I still haven't really done much research on Tasmania yet... Rabbit and I trying to plans our year end holidays and we have to choose between Cairns or Tasmania... and she's doing Cairns and I'm doing Tasmania... hmmm...

Well, I think I have pretty much made up my mind on IF we are going to Cairns, we MUST scuba diving at the Great Barrier Reef! ...I have the feeling that if we only do snokelling at Cairns, I may regret not Scuba Dive, and I may have to go back to Cairns again someday (which I don't mind, but I may not go back to Cairns any sooner because I have other places/countries where I wanna visit too).. and Great Barrier Reef may not wait for me, due to global warming... =(

I think Rabbit is not interested in Scuba Diving at Cairns... (Read Cairns VS Tasmania at Scrabbitch.)

Stokers

Went to STOKERS to enjoy the beautiful Pancake today... as usual, I got lost again finding my way there... Seriously, NOT a single time I didn't get lost driving there!! ...In a way, I think this is great, because this place is so Unique that I don't wish anyone knows about it... and yes it located at somewhere nobody would ever imagine a small cafe like this would survive... not to mention the ugly exterior which many passes by wouldn't even think about going in and checking it out... (if only they ignore the ugly exterior and walked in, they'll discover a new world inside!)

Stokers only opens from 8pm but it closed at 2am and it doesn't open on Sunday... A very cool and cozy place to hang out with a friend or two especially during Winter... There's an old Fireplace right at the center, and a very old rightup Piano sits at the corner, and two very old and huge speakers playing Jazz music and some very old pieces... It makes the environment so cozy and feels like home...

Of course, Stokers' speciality is their beautiful yummy pancakes... I personally love their Banana & Rum pancakes with ice-cream... and their Pineapple Juice or a cuppa hot chocolate with marshmallow...

Errrr... This sound like some kinda Food Review now... hehe... I think I'm a little carried away talking about STOKERS just because I really really love the place and their pancakes... Hmm... So what was I meant to write in my blog for today? ...Hmmm... Let me think... Oh Yeah Yeah!!! Now I remember what I wanted to write!! ...

"I had Blueberries Pancakes with Ice-Cream and a cuppa at Stokers today!!!"

(Note: No I won't tell you where Stokers is... not unless you let me drive you there and not complaining if we get lost on our way there!)

Wrong Reason...

"I know you care about me and you don't want to see me get hurt, but I am not going to be alone for the rest of my life and I am sick and tired of living the single life"

This is the reply from my friend across the Pacific Ocean... Yes, he has chosen to be with this woman who cheated on him 4yrs ago... She has a long history of cheating / breaking men's heart and full of lies... Well, she is still married to her husband, whom she has cheated on, and left him and their beautiful 1yr old for another surfer... and now she is leaving this surfer and planning to fly across the ocean to be with my friend... Dramatic hey? ...

Well, I was quite upset when I read his reply... I mean, if only he had told me he wanna give it a go just for love, I would have been very supportive... But it is so obvious that he has chosen this path because of convenience, and an easy way out for him just because he is afraid of being single and alone... which seems so wrong!! ...*Sigh*... He is only 27, and why is he so "desperate" for? ... =/

I have friends whom I care a lot, and sometimes it really hurts so much to see them doing things to hurt themselves.. or seeing them exposing themselves vulnerably for others to hurt them... Yet I feel powerless as I can't protect them and they are in the situation where they are so blind / deaf to take any advises... I dislike this feelings... and when I feel this way, I can only remind myself --- It's REALLY None Of My Business !! ...... zZ Zzz Zz Zzz Zzz zzZ ZZzz z....

Pushing My Luck

Read the news regarding possible terrorist attack in Indonesia on 2nd April (which is today)... Hmm... DFAT Travel Advise everyone to consider the need to travel to Indonesia, including Bali due to high treat of terrorist attack... *sigh*... My heart stopped a beat after reading the headline news... Let's hope it's a false alarm... and let's hope there's no more terrorist attacks in the future...

My family & a few friends started to be a little concerned over my chosen holiday destination (as I am flying to Bali coming May)... I must admit I was a little worried about going to Bali but I thought I was overly paranoid... Now that I have paid for my return tickets and waiting excitedly for my holidays, DFAT released these travel warnings... Grrrr... Of course it does make me feel a little unease again... but I think I'll push my luck a little... and I'll buy travel insurance just in case if anything happens... *fingers cross*...

Cheater

Received an SMS from a friend across the Pacific Ocean... Wondering whether is he really going to get back with his ex who left him for another guy 4yrs ago... Hmm... Eventhough it is none of my business, but is it really worth it to get back with someone who cheated on you, and also has a long history of cheating ALL her boyfriends and husbands?? ...hmmm...

Oh yeah, i just found out that one of my ex is seeing another girl after his recent break up with his gf of 2yrs... I don't understand how he always managed to start another relationship so soon after his break up... I feel for his gf of 2yrs (just because I was also the victim long time ago)... Well, I think that's one of the reason why I don't like Brad Pitt!!! ...I mean, how could you break up with someone and run into another person's arm straight away? ...As if the person whom you have been with for so long not worth your time to feel devesated when you two broke up?... and you just couldn't wait to get rid of them and run into another person's arm?... How hurtful that would be to your ex when you start a new relationship that soon? ...Where is the sensitivity chip of yours??

Anyway, enough of blah for now... none of my business anyway... hehehe... need to get some beauty sleep!! ...