Ring of my Right

[ evanescence ] weight of the world

I have finally found a ring that I really like on Sunday!!
A vintage ring with a few orange garnets...
A ring that is very unique...
A ring with personality...
A ring with attitude...
A ring that says "I can" instead of "I do"...
A ring that shows "no boundaries"...
Yet... I didn't buy it...

Perhaps I want to make sure that I truly fond of before I buy my first ring...
Perhaps I want to wait for a few days to see if my heart still yearn for it...
Perhaps I enjoy the feeling of having something to look forward to...
...that kinda uncertainties feelings of whether it would be sold to someone...
...or it truly belongs to me at the end...

Why do I want a ring?
...because I am single...
...because my happiness comes within myself, not from someone else...

I want a ring on my right hand...
I want a ring that declares my right... =)

He says... She says...

[ debbie gibson ] lost in your eyes

He says...
He wants to get to know her better and best way is be in the relationship...
She says...
We don't necessary need to be in a relationship to get to know a person...

He says...
She has to improve to minimize hardships in their relationship...
She says...
He has to love her as a whole and not afraid of what may comes in future...

He says...
If he could not see them being happily together in the future, he'll let go ...
She says...
Having doubts now only means that you're searching for an easy way out...

He says...
She still has feelings for the other guy and it's normal if she feels this way...
She says...
You're not the one for her if she couldn't forget about the other guy now...

He says...
Only time will tell if we were meant to be together...
She says...
Love has no MAYBE... and there's too many maybe in yours...

He says...
How could you be so certain when everything is a constant change?
She says...
You know, when you are in love... You know, when that's the one...

He says...
You're just a Romantist... I am not like that... I am very realistic...
She says...
Yes, I am a Romantist... yet I am much realistic than you think you are...

He... is an insider...
She... is just an outsider...

And... they both agree... that...
We all have to go through many to learn how to determine WHAT is...

Happy Baby

[ evermore ] light surrounding you


Babies make me smile and they brighten up my day...

I was checking out the photo album of Baby Brandon the other night while listening to Evermore's music...

I feel so much better since the weekend... Why?

song:-
...cos i see the light surrounding you...
...so don't be afraid of something new...

Fighter 2

[ enigma ] return to innocent

Heard the news about Belinda Emmett's passing today... Sad...
I thought she would lived longer especially seeing her being so determine and so strong all these while... but it still killed her like it killed my friend's mum just a few days ago...

Just as I started to forget about completing my 5 years milestones...
Just as I started to have a long term dreams & plans...
I realized I do have to sorta plan my life around it in some kinda way...
Because there's not a single day I don't think about it...

Fighter

[ the cat empire ] hotel california

A friend's mum passed away just few days ago...
She discovered she had it the same time when I was recovering from my relapse end of last year... and she's gone now... and I survived...

It's such a complex feeling that I don't really know how to describe it... There's sadness and fear... and there's confusion and frustrations (yet that brought more strength inside in many ways)... There's realization of how fragile human being is, and there's more appreciation to every beautiful things around me in this moment of time...

Re-check my to-do list... Hmmm... it's about time to work on those instead of letting time stray away...

Crêpes @ Williamstown

[ evermore ] running

We went to Williamstown hoping to taste the best Sticky Date Pudding at the Pelican Hotel's restaurant... All the way there to find out they no longer serve Sticky Date Pudding on their menu... So disappointed, so sad... until we found a replacement - French Crepes!!

I have never been to Breizoz Crêperies during night time at all... Usually we'd only dropped in for breakfast or brunch, and checking out the artworks on the wall (they change the paintings all the times and some said those were painted by the owner's daughter)...

He ordered Apple & Calvados Crêpes Flambées... She ordered Apple & Chocolat Crêpes... and I ordered just Apple Crêpes... (Just because I casually mentioned to them the Apple Crepes is nice... and we all ended up ordering the ones with apple... lolx)

Crêpes made our day as that's the best thing we have eaten that night.

False Alarm

[ evanescence ] all that i'm living for

I went to bed around midnight last night, and as I was tossing and turning trying to fall asleep... I started to feel a little uncomfortable yet I didn't know why... I started to explore why I felt that way, yet that feeling of something terrible might happen growing even stronger... I was shivering and sweating... Made a few calls/sms to ensure everybody I care about is okay...

Well, I have always trusted my instinct and it hardly failed me... On the other hand, I sometimes do wonder if it was my strong mind that made things happened and made things come true...

Anyway, it's never a good feeling knowing something was going to happen, yet I couldn't stop it... and this kinda feeling used to frustrate me a lot because I just couldn't do anything to change it nor to help anyone... and I used to question what is the purpose of given me such distinct instinct when I couldn't change anything? ...But I have grown to understand that maybe I wasn't supposed to change the course of what may happen in the future, and the purpose of it perhaps was to help me and help others to prepare and to handle what may have come? ...

Well, I thought the best I could do was to stop worrying because I still don't fully understand the power of my mind? ...and I read from somewhere about - sometimes mind power could contribute to what is going to happen... so in order not to let my mind release any negative vibes and maybe make things come true... I decided to meditate and calm myself down... Boxed away all the negative things away, and imagined white lights all around everybody and everything...

And the last time I checked the time, it was 3.15am...

I woke up at 6.30am feeling afresh and I'm a little surprised how much meditation helps... Usually if I went to bed such late and woke up such early, I would feel extremely tired and have puffy eyes... Anyway, I was feeling great in the morning... but all started to go down hill at 2pm at work, cos I couldn't stop yawning... TGIF!!! ... =)

Well, about the terrible feelings I had last night? ...Perhaps it was just a false alarm... Perhaps it's just a journey for me to learn slowly how to take a little control of my powerful mind (who knows? ...maybe i really do have special power that I know not of - just like the popular TV series in US (HEROES?)... haha... In all, meditate helps...

Inspiring...

[ tenacious d ] tribute to the best song in the world

Came across Charles Hamel's blog... Very moving and inspiring piece...
If you don't read it, at least view the video... and then think about how it makes you feel...