Canon D Jam Session

[ elton john ] your song

What a closing for Sunday night playing Canon D with Brother!!

He played Guitar and I played on my digital piano... It was awesome!!! ...Even though I screwed up all the times near middle of Page 2 (yeah this is as far as I have learnt, dammit!)... but it's just feel so great when playing guitar and piano together... the adrenaline and the excitement hearing brother putting a few creative bits to harmonize the piece... Absolutely brilliant!!! ...I'm much more motivated to play Canon D now... so that we could jam next time!!!

Other than that... While I was driving down to meet up Kelvin this afternoon, Elton John's Your Song played on the radio... Gosh... The beautiful melody touched my heart till my heart aches... Sometimes, some songs at certain time make me feel that way...

Anyway, we went to have big breakfast at North Road near the beach (Brighton Beach maybe?!)... and walked around the Sunday Market at St.Kilda beach before heading to Station Street at Prahran... Such a lovely place... Bought a pair of sandals cos it was cheap and I needed a nice one too...

I felt so much better today comparing to yesterday... but as I was typing this, I learned that he went to Footscray Lunar New Year Festival today... I could have gone to that Festival too to close the chapter (as a whole complete visiting LNY Festival in 2007) but I didn't... I guess I was lucky that I didn't go, because if I did, my Sunday may not be as beautiful... maybe... maybe...

Sydney... I might come as planned... =)
Brandon... Your god-mother miss you soooooooooooo much!!!!

Lonely Saturday

[ edith piaf ] la vie en rose

I hate today... I hate this weekend...
I'm glad today will end soon...
I hope tomorrow will get better... and better... and better each day...

Even though this is all expected and in my plans... but I guess we can never plan enough... at least not feelings... nor emotions... nor the thoughts that still linger somewhere? ...

Watched "A Good Year"... Beautiful... Absolutely beautiful...
Watched "The Illusionist"... Brilliant... Absolutely brilliant...
Watched a bit of the Anime "Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto"...
Watched "Arahan"... a substitute for "My Sassy Girl"...
Practiced "Canon D"...

The End and The Begining

[ 王菀之 ] 我真的受伤了

The week seemed so long, so dull, so slow and so low...
Our beautiful affair has finally came to an end today...

Our journey has been pretty smooth and cool from start to end...
...like it's meant to be...
If it wasn't becos we didn't have much workload end of last year...
...We wouldn't have had started the beautiful & excited affair...
If it wasn't becos of Lunar New Year and Valentine's day...
...We wouldn't have had so much fun and memories to remember...

This week, I have started my battle that I must face alone...
This week, you have to go back to where you belong...
And...
Our beautiful affair ended with the Honey+Lemon tea I made you today...

Game, baby... Game...
(Inspired by "Jeux d'enfants")

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[ 王菀之 ] 我真的受伤了
灯光也暗了 音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了

电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了

灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了

Slow Down, Monday...

[ 3 days grace ] pain

Took a day off for Lunar New Year... Feeling rather lazy in the morning (cos I still haven't started tidying my room!)... so I ended up spending most of my morning playing digital piano - Canon D!

During lunch time I watched "The Prestige" while having my lunch, but I just couldn't get into it at all... I think the weather was getting better and I just wanted to get out there to meet up with the Sun?? ... heeeee ...And off I went to High-Point to shop and I saw a pairs of white shoes, but they don't have my size!!! ...URGH!!)... I'll hunt it down in city this week...

I spent nearly 1hr ++ at Borders Bookshop... Enjoying a cuppa Latte while reading "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom... Managed to finish reading it while I was there!! ...The book is quite easy to read... I saw this book last week and the title captured my attention... Thought I should read a few chapters but to my surprise too I managed to finish reading the whole book!

Anyway, I bought "Tuesdays With Morrie" by the same author today... Gary's recommendation... and I read the first few pages, and I like it... I'm sure it's one of those book that I'd wanna keep...

I also bought "The Buddha, Geoff and me" by Edward Canfor-Dumas... Kelvin lend me this book the other day and I'm still reading it at the moment... I just couldn't stressed how much I love this book... I found myself so connected to Geoff (the person in the book)... It's a book full of gold... and I read it slowly because there's always things for me to digest and think before I move on to next page... I love this kinda books that makes me think... (just like "The Philosophy Gym" by Stephen Law... It's another book which make me think - in different manner!)

Anyway, I could see myself slowing down my life and started to do more reading again... I'll have more time for myself... I'll have more time for my body to recover... I'll slow down... I'll start doing some exercise (I went swimming today!!)... I'll start eating healthy... I'll start listening to my body... I'll start to be good to myself...

You know what? ...The word "BUSY" in Chinese is "忙"... and if we cut them into half and separate both character, it will read "Heart + Dead"...

Slow down... Slow down...
Slow down to smell the flowers...
Slow down to feel the breeze...

Lunar New Year - Crown

[ hinder ] lips of an angel

(Still loving this song... Still playing on my play list all the times... Still think he's an angel sent down to distract me from the living nightmares that soon to come...)

Today is the FIRST day of Lunar New Year!
Happy Lunar New Year everyone!!! 恭喜恭喜!! 恭喜发财!!

Lunar New Year doesn't mean too much to me nowadays, as we don't have any relatives/friends whom we could celebrate with... Every Lunar New Year would remind me of how fun and happy it used to be when we were still living in Msia. We had lotsa relatives and friends to celebrate with... We played firecrackers... We ate lotsa cookies... We worn our new outfit to welcome the New Year... We played card games and mahjong with our beloved cousins... We CELEBRATED with style!!

Anyway, received an sms and went out to meet up at 1230pm... Went to Crown Casino to check out the Lunar New Year celebrations... Not as good as the previous years... and it was too hot too (38 Celsius Degree again)... Went into Casino to walk around, and there wasn't any movies that suit our time... So we went back to Footscray to play Snooker again...

This time round I beaten him for once!! ...but that's because he gave me 20points head start and he actually set up a lot of balls for me to hit... So kind huh!! ...Anyway, I still need to work on my posture and aiming skills... I like playing Snooker than playing pool...

Well, we left around 5pm as he has family dinner to attend, and so was I... I actually didn't expect to meet up with him today, cos he has a big family here in Melb and today is the 1st day of Lunar New Year and he was meant to spend it with his family and relatives instead... but he came out to spend the afternoon with me... which makes me feel a very special indeed... =) ...

Coming week, I'll be starting my treatments and I believe things will start to change then... We, will change... I, will change... It's time to end the game this few days... cos I have already gotten more than I should have taken... and it's more memorable to end it when it is still at it's peak...

Lunar New Year Eve - Sunshine

[ hinder ] lips of an angel

Finally had the chance to watch one of the movie which I've always wanted to watch - Bichunmo. It was not as good as I expected it to be... Well, I probably should have watched it when it first came out during 2000... I probably would have thought it was good back then...

Anyway, I fell asleep a few times watching it on my comfy bed as the storyline is kinda predictable and it was so hot in Melb (38 Degree Celsius)!!

It's one of those day that I actually felt like I should have gone out instead of staying at home... Sorta suggested to a friend to go Crown Casino or BoxHill as there's Lunar New Year celebrations tonight... So off we went after dinner... It was crowded but there's nothing much to see though... Not as many stalls as the previous few years... Probably it was too hot, yeah?!

Received an SMS which made my night much more interesting... I drove to Sunshine to meet up and went to Sunshine's temple... It was so crowded as there's so many Vietnamese there... Squeeze into the temple to pray... Watched a little bit of Dancing Dragons and saw a little Fire Crackers...

Spending Lunar New Year Eve at Sunshine reminded me of Malaysia so much... Many families and houses light up Fire Crackers like nobody cares (it's actually illegal in Australia)... There was polices and securities making sure the traffic flows throughout the night, but they didn't bother the Fire Crackers at all...

I missed Malaysia's LNY celebrations...
I missed my friends, and I missed my beloved cousins...

[ 1st time - visiting Sunshine Temple ]

Hinder - Lip Of An Angel

[ hinder ] lip of an angel

Heard this song on the radio for the 1st time on my way to work... fell in love with it immediately...

Memorable Valentine's Day

[ hinder ] lips of an angel

It's Valentine's Day today!! ...Reached office and handed out all the beautiful roses to all the girls in my Dept as well as my manager, Wendy and Elaine... They loved it!!

Well, I left office during noon for another appointment... Went to the wrong hospital and had to rush to the correct ones! ...How careless huh!!!? ...Anyway, as I expected... I wouldn't know what kinda arrangements until PET scan result comes out... and the appointment for PET scan is March... *sigh*

Anyway, I didn't manage to give him a rose last night, and I didn't feel like giving him today at all... It's like THAT spontaneous moment is long gone and I don't feel right to do it anymore, even though he said he'll wanna have it if it has rotten or overdue...

I told him I was leaving work early cos I had an appointment... and that's when I found out he actually sent me flowers but the delivery hasn't arrived... What a pity... He wasn't very happy and that's when I decided to buy some Sunflowers (everyone knows I love Sunflowers and that shall remind him of me! ...haha)... And then NEW IDEAS started to flow in... (Special thanks to Kelvin for helping me arrange the beautiful Sunflowers)

Anyway, to cut the story short... I told him I was going to leave "something" on his car so that when he could get it when he finished work... Due to traffic jam, I thought I wasn't going to make it to his car before him did, as I wasn't that familiar with how to get to his train station... Anyway, I was pretty lucky that I made it and got there early... *woohoo*... I then put lotsa Yellow Post Notes to stick around his car with some instructions to where to find the "thing"... and I drove to the side lane to hide... hehe

He arrived 5 mins later (the time was indeed so tight, that I had butterflies in my tummy!!!!)... He called me on the phone, and we both laugh becos he was quite surprised to see his car was full of Yellow Post Notes... Quite a scene and lotsa people turning heads... haha... And he started to look around his car, up and down and below to find the thing I told him I left for him... and he kept telling me on the phone that he couldn't find it and asked if it was possible that someone has took it? ...I was hiding nearby and I was laughing hard cos it was hilarious to see him kept looking underneath his car and around his car like a lost soul...

Unfortunately I couldn't use my phone to take photos or video at that moment because he was on the line talking to me while doing his search... URGH!!!! ...Anyway, I then slowly walked towards him and had my Sunflowers hide behind my back... As I walked closer, he then saw me... and we both laughed and I gave him the Sunflowers and he gave me a big warm hug... People was watching, and one driver drove pass and honked us... I'm such a genius romantic, ain't I!!!? ...

Anyway, we stayed there and talked a little before we both went separate ways... It's a cool Valentine's Day... I'm sure we all have had some memorable ones in our past... but this year to me, is the most memorable ones, because I've never done something such cool before, and the funniest thing is that... we are closed but we are not lovers... and I'm loving the fact that we are not lovers but we could do things like this without any worries... =)

I guess we are a little bit like the movie "Love Me If You Dare" (original French titled "Jeux d'enfants")... We both do challenge each other at times and it's always game times... as it's the journey that counts... =)

Valentine's Eve

[ beyonce ] irreplaceable

Left work early for an appointment...

Quite uncomfortable knowing too much details... understand more of how it travels... understand the chances... and knowing what's the worst outcome... yes... scares me...

There's more arrangements and busy schedules in the coming weeks and future... I'm fully prepared... Just couldn't wait to start all that so that I could feel good again...

Went to buy a bunch of Roses because tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and I wanna give all the girls in my Dept one each... For I love them to bits and i hope they'll find love soon!! ...(all of us are still single, and only one 23yo is married)...

Good food comforts me... We went to Malaya Inn at Doncaster for dinner... I was fine, I am prepared, I am good, and I am full after dinner... yet my body didn't feel that way, as my tummy upset again... I guess my body and my mind doesn't agree at all... I guess I must have boxed my emotion and feelings away from my mind, but deep down I'm still feeling upset and nervous, hence my tummy hasn't been feeling well? ...hmmmph...

Suddenly wanted to pass him a rose... It was a spontaneous thoughts... It's too risky to pass him a rose tomorrow (Valentine's Day)... Hence, if not now, then never... I thought... and unfortunately, he couldn't come and pick it up due to he was somewhere else with his dad fixing something... Oh well, it's not meant to be then... =/

Arrived home, dad saw the flowers that Kelvin gave me (beautiful Roses)... and he told me there's some more in the living room... "Some More"?? ...I didn't get it... So, I went to living room to find out what he meant by "some more"... Woooaah!!! ...Gerbera Bouquet!!! ...I didn't expect that!! ...It was from sweet Gerald... *^_^* ...He said Gerbera was the closest to Sunflowers that he could find... =) ...Thanks Gerald... (Now everyone knows you sent me flowers... kekekeekeke... *bleh*)

Lunar New Year - Springvale

[ my sassy girl ] i believe

Woke up pretty early as I was excited about today! ...Anyway, we met up at 12pm and off we went to play snooker at Footscray... I did quite well (thanks to my friend great skill in hitting the white ball into the hole... hiak hiak hiak!)... but the 2nd game, I was trashed badly (I think my points were less than 10)... ish! ...

After the game we went to Chadstone to shop... We went to Sushi Sushi for sushi and just as we sat down and he was about to have his first bite of the sushi, I asked him a question and he had to stop putting the sushi into his mouth and answered me.. and just as he started to put the sushi near his mouth again, I shoot him another question, and again he had to stop and answered me... I think I repeatly asked him 5 questions until he stopped and asked me if he could take the 1st bite of his sushi first before I asked any more questions!? ...lolx... OMG! ...That was hilarious and we both laughed so loud till everyone was looking at us... *aiks*

We went to shop around after we bought the movie ticket "A Night At Museum"... and we bought the very unhealthy Krispy Kreme... Yum Yum but I only had one cos I was pretty full from Sushi... The movie alright as it's a kiddy's movie...

I guess it was round 6pm that we started to go to Springvale for Lunar New Year Festival... It was so crowded and we had to park the car at the race course show ground and paid $5 entrance fees (what the hell?)... It was definitely better than the Richmond LNY Festival last weekend... Bought some food to eat and squeezing in the crowd like Sardine Fish... Played some stupid funfair game and won a white rose that made by some soft material...

1st time being carried up and nearly being thrown into the bin, thankfully the bin's lid was closed!!! ...How to get away with it? ...Well, you think my big mouth only for eating great food? ...Nah, you're wrong... I bite too... and I bite people hard! ....kekeke...

Well, had some junk food there and head back to Melb cos we had enough of the crowded place... Drove to the Temple near Sunshine to have a long chat... There was only a star in the sky... Saw a Rabbit... The joke of the day was -- Van & Hatchback...

And the highlight of the day goes to... the long heart to heart chat under the sky that had only one star shining upon us...

[ 1st time - Springvale LNY ]
[ 1st time - movie at Chadstone ]
[ 1st time - being carried and nearly being thrown into the bin ]
[ 1st time - toyboy ]

Unpleasant Result...

[ gwen stefani ] wind it up

Busy occupying myself with all the files in front of my desk the whole morning... Trying to stay calm and focus, yet preparing myself for the phone call that I had to make in the afternoon to collect the result...

Struggled to make the call... Tummy upset... Hands shaking...
Mind was soooooooo calm, yet body reacted totally opposite...

Result was told through the phone... busy making a few more calls to arrange further appointments... Updated my manager and agreed to let my team leader knows... Totally feeling well and calm at that point of time...

Finally came back to my own desk and let all information sunk in... Started to feel sick to the stomach... until I received the email from my team leader that my eyes started to fill with tears... Hold it back... Hold it back... Look up the ceiling... Dry up dry up... I tried and tried... but I broke down when a lady from another Dept walked pass gave me a big warm hug (cos she thought I was upset due to workloads)...

I went down stairs to get some fresh air... Felt so much better... Felt so bad to make the girls in my Dept worry about me, yet I couldn't tell them what was wrong... I... Don't want them to treat me any differently... Too much love, too much caring, making me weak... I have to be strong...

Just as I turned around and walked back to the building... I heard a loud whistle... Turned around and there he was, smiling... His smile was contagious... He noticed I cried before and he didn't ask... We went into the lift and didn't press the floor number... Joke a little and he squeezed my face so hard, I smiled... I felt so much better then... Sometimes I wonder if he was another angel who was sent to my rescue...

Came back to my Dept and apologized to the girls...
Talked about other things and everything went back to normal again...

Felt much better for having the chance to cry a little... That was the down point... but I managed to climb back and accept my destiny and prepare for the battles...

New Lump

[ kt tunstall ] other side of the world

Discover it...
Anxious about it...
Afraid of it...
Couldn't stop thinking about it...
Hate it...
Angry about it...
Worry about it...
Wanna get rid of it...

I had my 2nd chance... Will I get 3rd?

Lunar New Year - Richmond

[ ost my sassy girl ] i believe

We met up at 2pm and went to Brunswick to walk up and down as my friend has never been there before... The weather was HOT and it wasn't that pleasant to walk and shop as both of us sweat like mad...

Checked into this Cafe to have some desserts and drinks (he had pancakes + iced lemon tea, I had Peaches in Yogurt Red Wine Sauce + mango&strawberry juice)... Very Yummy... Had his first bite cheekily...

Had a bit of time on our hands, we went to play pool at Footscray... A smoke free pool playing place where there's not many people at all... I actually enjoy playing pool but I don't get much chance to learn as I don't have many friends who plays pool at all..

Anyway, we then headed to Richmond as there's Lunar New Year Celebrations. It was extremely hard to find parking there. And I guess it's nearly dinner time and there's more people coming out to join the festival and have dinner there (cos Richmond is not only a Vietnamese area, but its full of Asian restaurants)... We squeezed in the crowd to check out the food around... I was exhausted cos it was HOT and there's so many people, and the heat from the hawker stalls' cooking... I think I nearly fainted due to the heat... Luckily we stopped at the end of the road and sat on the floor to rest a while before we went into this restaurant to have dinner (there's air-condition inside!!!)

It was nearly sun sets when we came out from the restaurant... We then bought some Sweet Corns to chew while continue to walk up and down... Not many handsome guys to check out, not many pretty girls neither... I think both of us were the most pretty and handsome one out there (*cough*cough*)... hahahaha...

Due to we both had to work the next day (Monday), we didn't stay there long at all... We went home around 9 or 10ish... Very tiring... The outing wasn't too bad, but it was not as relaxed especially knowing the next day is Monday and its such a long week to go before next weekend comes... sigh!!