Agentine Tango

[ gotan project ] santa maria

Which ballroom dancing do you enjoy watching?
If you were to pick a ballroom dance to learn, which one would you learn?

Check out this couple (the lady with white strip on her dress) at 3:00 min on this video... *amazing*... Great legs huh!! ... =))



I actually missed out on their "One Night In Buenos Aires Stage Show" in Melbourne... If only I knew earlier, I would go and watch it... Heard it was awesome! ...

Room Full of Junks

[ trans-siberian orchestra ] requiem

Just taking a short break from tidying my room... Phew! ...I have spent the whole morning sorting through all the books, magazines, old text books, notes that I have collected all those years... and it's time to say good-bye to them...

I always dreamt of having a home library like Prof. Higgins in "My Fair Lady"... but since I don't have a big house and places to keep all the National Geographic and New Scientists and other books I have kept over the years... I guess the best way is to donate them to Salvation Army or library rather than have them sitting in my room collecting dusts... (Note: I still have lotsa Desktop Mags and other books that I needed to sort through before I decide whether to throw or to keep... sigh!)

Next task is to tidy up my DESK... and my WARDROBE too... Ahhh... Thinking about tidying up the wardrobe already giving me massive headache...

I guess I just have to keep reminding myself to :-
1 - Throw anything that I haven't touched/used for 6 months.
2 - Keep my room simply, clean and as empty as possible.
3 - Do not ever collect things thinking that it might be useful one day.
4 - Do not buy things that is not necessary ever!!

Yes, my Saturday and Sunday will be spent on tidying my room!

Office Affairs Continues

[ harry connick jr ] hear me in the harmony

*** NOTE ***
The following blog was posted a while ago, but I would like to add something today (17-June-08) ...I actually would like to THANK her for all her support and care, as she's the "primary" contact between me and work during my sickness days... She has organized cards from work, and present and visited me at hospital, and it's really kind of her... Anyway, I wished I didn't complain abt her, but I don't have intention to delete the blog, because I didn't wanna hide my mistakes... I just wished I could be more forgiving and not complaining too much and not being so fussy and particular... I sincerely thank her from the bottom of my heart...
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Just as I thought we (she and I) had a talk about a week ago, and we would be able to work together normally, but something happened again not long later...

The stupid bitch got offended just because I wrote a post-on note on a document to "remind" any of us to do something (just in case we forget due to the workloads!). She said she doesn't like me putting post-on note on the document because that makes her looks bad or stupid, and that she knows what she was doing and she will do them without anyone "reminding her"...

Ridiculous thing was that those documents was on my desk and it was obvious enough that those post-on note was also for me to remind myself to "follow up" just in case she forgets... Trust me, she always forget or mess up some steps when she starts to "multi-task"...

Anyway, I didn't keep quiet this time round and I explained my reasons and they are all valid, I'm sure she knows it by her heart... but due to her EGO and whatever reason, she turned around and started typing so loud like she wanted to kill the keyboards... and as usual she's not speaking to me again for another day! ...

Maybe it's a SIGN for me to let go or work less hour to put more focus on myself and my health nowadays... only if my income won't get affected if I work less hours... Hmmm...

Affortable Art Show 08

[ nelly furtado ] all good things

It's been a very stressed week at work.
Many things happened but very little improvements.
I was looking forward to weekends! ...

I had appointment on Saturday morning... then went to check out some prices at some Chinese herbal and supplement shops... Came home to rest for 2 hours before heading out to my colleague's place for dinner as one of the ex-colleague will be flying back to HK for good. The dinner was great and we all had a great time that night.

On Sunday, I was meant to go to this New Age Festival at Frankston because one of my colleague is taking up some lesson to do all those Healing for Body and Soul thingy... and she was going to intro me to someone whom she thinks may help me in some way...

Anyway, I didn't end up going because I was feeling tired in the morning and to drive down to Frankston takes probably nearly 2hrs from my place. So I decided to give it a missed... and decided to go to the Affortable Art Show at Old Exhibition instead.

I thought I would missed out this year's Affortable Art Show because of my full schedule this weekend... I'm glad I didn't miss it... I know there's a lot of Artworks have already been sold on Friday and Saturday... but browsing and walking around on the final day of exhibition still inspire me a lot and made me wanna paint again... soon...

Slowly... because if the WHY is big enough, the HOW will be shown to me...

Unprofessional Attitude in Workplace

[ richard carlson ] dont sweat the small stuff

Reached office and say "good morning" to her and she didn't even care to respond - how childish and immature huh??

Asked if she has received some documents because a provider was on the phone wanted to confirm, and she turned around and gave me the "extremely annoying and cranky what-now-look", and replied "unwillingly" with her usual bitchy and sharp sarcastic tone saying, "I don't know, need to check later because I'm busy." And the whole day she didn't even update me regarding...

I just do things as usual and pass her documents without holding any grudges, but it is written on her whole face and it shows on her body languages too that she's going to be like this towards me for WHO-KNOWS-HOW-LONG!

It makes it extremely difficult for me to work with her now as a team... because she doesn't place any records on system hence the only way for me to find out if we have received those documentations is to ask her directly... With her kinda attitude towards me now, asking her anything would only make her even more hostile towards me.

I don't quite know what to do now... I do wish to talk to her in person nicely, but with her still holding so much grudges and anger, there's no way we could "communicate" at all because she'd get even more hostile and I'll get upset because of her reactions.

The last resort is to talk to my manager regarding the situation but this is really something I wanna avoid... I mean, I see myself as an adult and I really do think that this sorta tiny problems should be solved between ourselves instead of getting OUR MANAGER involved. It is getting stupid and silly and very unprofessional...

It's really hard working with immature and unprofessional people... *sigh*

First Acupuncture

[ rococo quartet ] por una cabeza

After missing many exits from the Freeways (I missed the exit at Tullamarine Freeway to my brother's place, and we missed the exit at Western Freeway and went all the way to Bacchus Marsh before making a U-turn)... All in all, we arrived to Melton Clinic about 40mins late!

My first impression of Nelson is that he is a bit too young (probably in his early 30s) and he is a Filipino (I think maybe it might just be me being unfair to question a non-Chinese's ability in practicing Chinese Herbal Medicine and Acupuncture?)... I must admit I had my doubts before the consultation session starts.

I have seen a lot of Doctors in these past few years and the more experience the Doctor is, the more he care less about you as a person (it's just like a truck driver, the longer he has been driving the truck, the reckless he'd become just because he is "used" to it)... Experienced Doctors only see us as just "numbers" and "patients" who come and go... They are lack of "passion" and they are just doing their job that is to give "symptomatic care" only...

I always wanted more from my Doctors but I haven't yet met a Doctor who makes me feel that they treat me as a real person instead of just a "number"... And when I met Nelson, I knew he is probably "the one" whom I could trust (at least in the mind and spirit kinda way)... We had a long talk (to understand each other and to confirm we are working towards the same directions)...

A person's eyes would not lie... A person's body language reveals a lot... We have similar mind-sets and I haven't met any person who actually "speak" my mind... I am feeling very comfortable talking to him... He might be young but I believe young people have more "passionate" in what they are doing and they'll put more effort in it (before they started to get bored or started to fall into the trap of doing things "routinely")...

I'll give him try and see what I could get out from it... I am actually very interested in seeing how he could work me up on the "Mind and Spirit" and what challenges he would give me to work on to incorporate with his treatment plans (Herbal & Acupuncture)...

My first Acupuncture was okay... No dramas, No pain... Piece of cake... Whether it was "effective" or not, I could not tell at all... My next appointment is 2 weeks later...
Looking forward to it!

Workplace Problems - HER again

[ rococo quartet ] por una cabeza

I have been in quite a lot of stressed these few days at work... and I felt that I'm stucked at the situation where a lot of "communication" is required, yet I have analysed every possible steps/ways but I still could not foresee any "win-win" case to solve the issues...

I always fix her mistakes quietly instead of pointing those mistakes or wrong doing out to let her acknowledge her own mistakes and to give her room of improvements... She is spoilt because of me... and nobody will find out about how incapable she is... I don't think it would do me any good if I told my new manager the honest truth because he would probably think I am just trying to say bad words about her to protect my own job...

YES, my manager thought of changing my job role just because he thinks that I have to battle with cancer and I may bring the team down if I were to take more days off in the future... In a way I understand his point of view, yet I do not think that arrangement works... He wanted me to train her up so that she could take over my role... and I know very well that she's incapable of taking up this role because of her laziness and poor organizational skills...

Now, if that really happens, I would think I'd be in the situation where... If I were to train her up, and if she couldn't pick things up (cos she isn't that smart really), they all may think it's ME who didn't teach her well probably because I wanted her to fail as I wasn't willing to hand her the role (especially IF I told my new manager now, that she isn't quite right for this role?)...

It's complicated... and I haven't slept well the past few days... and it sort of created a bit of "tension" between her and myself these few days...

Well, the other morning she took a correspondence away from my desk and told me she's going to follow up with that (because she is "prepared" to learn and take on my role)... I wasn't impressed because she doesn't keep things in file and keep records of what she does and if ONE DAY someone asks me about what's going on with that job, I will have no records of it and I will look terrible... IF this was her tasks to take care of these correspondence, I couldn't care less... but these are MY responsibility and she should have known she shouldn't have crossed it especially I am back to WORK now... it's not like I'm still in the hospital...

So I questioned her if she has finished her own stuffs and if she is now up to date with her filings/photocopying and etc (because she has been crying the previous day complaining to everyone that she's so stressed and overloaded with things that she has so many things to apply and to follow up)... If she already has so many things to do and follow up, how could she NOT trying to finish her own shit first? ...Is she a bit too eager and impatience or is she trying to proof something there? ...

I was quite annoyed and she was also offended by the way I questioned her... She knew she has crossed it and she just wasn't happy that for the first time I questioned her in this kinda way I guess... We haven't really spoken for 2 days... Let's hope after the weekend things would improve...

Complicated... but it certainly has given me a chance to think about the whole situations, the reality of this world, human behavior, my true feelings and thoughts, to re-evaluate and reflect my own actions and to check if I am actually being fair or naive and etc... Anyway, I am sure I'll find my way to deal with it... Life is all about learning how to deal with problems, isn't it?

Finally Met after 11yrs

[ 古巨基 ] 劲歌金曲2 - 情歌王

Sunday night I finally met up with a good friend whom I have known for 11 long years... I'm very happy to have finally met him in person after all those years... Though it was the first time we met in person, but we felt as if we have known each other for ages and it was great and we can chat non-stop if time wasn't the limit.

I was actually meant to meet up with him on Monday night after his D&D but my body was not up for it as I was still not fully recovered and I was feeling very weak and tired after my first day back to work... It's a pity...

Anyway, I managed to meet up with him for a quick dinner today after work, and sent him off to airport for him to catch his flight back to Perth... Thank goodness he managed to catch his flight on time (cos we were kinda running a little late)...

Well, hopefully we shall meet again someday soon...

Hmmm... who else I haven't met in person after all these years?
...Jason & Kenneth!